HIM 🖤 (a Remington Leith fan fiction)

Call me Crazy

1 year later
Somewhere on tour
Remington's POV

I liked when we went to places that didn't allow the bus. That way, I was able to get my own room away from everyone and away from reality. The only thing there was Bella and I couldn't complain.

If you're wondering, I yelled till I couldn't no more so she could come. The kids are with mom and times like this make me the happiest.

Bella was sleeping sound and I wasn't gonna wake her. She'd been tossing all night, I don't know why. I couldn't sleep so I got up and scribbled down some thoughts and feelings and started writing a song that I didn't even realize I was writing.

I looked at my phone, it was 4:23 am. I sighed. I contemplated if I wanted coffee or not. I shrugged and went back into the song. I remember Bella wanted to be a singer so bad. She tried forever, I saw her, even though we didn't have any contact. Why was I always thinking about her? Her. Hmm. I wrote down some more scribbled and jumbled words and heard her sit up.

"Morning sweetness." She smiled at me and rubbed her eyes. "Hi Remi." She yawned and reached her arms out for me. I shook my head and went over to her and hugged her. I cuddled her as we laid down.

"What are you doing? And what time is it?" I shrugged. "I don't know, just scribbling nonsense and uh, yeah." I wouldn't admit I was thinking about her, or how everything I wrote and did was about her.

She cuddled into my bare chest and her soft hair tickled. I didn't let it phase me.
"Bella?" She grunted. "Can I, uh, sing you something?" She looked at me. I smiled at her. "Yes you may sir." I loved when she said that. It gave me feelings. I got up and took her hand and went by a small ledge that was made into the floor. I really didn't know why it was there.

I sat her in my lap and grabbed the guitar they let me bring in. She smiled and I pulled her closer in. I took a deep breath and tried to remember the scribbly words.

"Bare with me queen." I adjusted everything. I kissed her in the cheek. "Of course Remi..." she yawned.

she used to dance
She used to cry as she held my hand
We used to say, we won't ever change...

I took a deep breath. I was nervous. I wrote this about when we were teenagers, and how I saw her fall in love with someone I knew wasn't good for her. She was my best friend. And she still is.

I fell in love with my best friend...
She fell in love with you instead...
Cause she's a teenage heartbreak queen...
Oh it's me and my misery...

And it was. I fell into a depression. She left the guitar on my steps as a graduation gift and I never saw her in person again.
Sebastian tried to help me but he never cared for her. I didn't know why. And what grudges he still had I don't know.

I fell in love with my best friend...
Now she's sleeping in your bed, oh...
she's a teenage heartbreak queen, it's me and my misery...

I don't think the lyrics hit her yet, but I was trying not to cry. So what if it was 10 years ago? It still did a toll on me.

It's not the same, the way she used to say my name... and she's strange, it's outta hand because somethings changed, somethings changed

I skipped a few lines. Maybe this one would wake her up. I wasn't trying to make her upset, but maybe she could know how I felt.

Well I loved her madly but she went away
I can't believe that she won't see my pain...
Though I'm not with her, I've lost my mind...
Well I loved her madly... till the end of time...

To you, that may be exaggerated... but it isn't.
You think about it, it's true.
I loved her with my fucking soul.
My life.
My everything.
It was all about her.
Seriously...

Ma Cherie? Yep. I even taught her French and helped her in class.
Mrs infamous? Hell yeah.
Fucking with my head? Mostly.
Wasted? Oh definitely
Many other songs? Yes.

Did I want to lose her? No
Did I love her? Yes.
Am I the one who let her go? Probably...
Am I the happiest person alive right now? Yes. I'm the happiest and luckiest. Because of us.
Because of her...