What Life Stole From Me

Chapter Eighteen

The look of horror on Naveed's and Brandy's faces was no match for mine.
I felt the world spin,the walls came closing in on me,and the air in the room suddenly felt short.

I walked closer to them,my legs moving on their own accord,I looked into Brandy's eyes and scanned her frozen body,my palm acting merely on instinct,I brushed it across her face,the sound of my palm landing on Brandy's flesh filled the room.

I looked over to Naveed,my anger was flaring at a ridiculously impossible rate.
My hand clenched in a fist,the situation was consuming me,I was towering with rage,every nerve in my body was trembling,all my manners left me,I thought about a million things to do to both of them,killing them included,but I was not about to let the desire for violence cloud my senses,and lure me into committing a lifetime regrettable mistake.

I picked up my satchel and scurried out of the apartment.

"Princess wait. Sarah please!" I heard Naveed call after me.
But I didn't stop,I sprinted out and across the street,knowing fully well that none of them could have followed me instantly,given their naked forms.

I glanced at an approaching cab and waved my hand profoundly,gesturing for it to stop.
I slid at the back of the cab and the cabbie drove away.

"Moore Ville,Alcaraz Estate." I stated,and the grey haired hefty man gave me an understanding nod.

I sank into the seat of the car and clenched my eyes shut,feeling the hot tears roll down my cheeks,I tried so hard to control my sobs but I failed miserably.
I held both hands to my face and sobbed gingerly. A body shaking,heartbreaking sob.
The pain in my chest was indescribable.

I thought of going to Jake's,but I didnt want to ruin their happy night. So I resorted to getting back to the quarters.

There were three people I could run to in times like that,but it turned out that other two were exactly the cause of my despair.
And Jake,I didn't want him to worry on such an eventful night.

The cabbie parked outside the main gates,I got out and handed him a twenty note,not turning back,I sprinted across the lighted streets of the estate and toward the workers quarters.

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I buried my face in my bed,letting the rest of my body linger on the soft rug,drawled in the pool of thoughts,of pain and hurt,and despair,of endless questions,how? When? Why?
I cried fiercely.

Thinking about all the time Naveed had changed,and all the silly excuses of being 'busy',and excuses of visiting his sick mother.
Then it hit me that it might have started the day Brandy and Naveed went to Jake's for reconciliation,when Naveed asked me to go to dinner with him and I was feeling at the edge of my mood then.

"I need you so much baby,but I'll be patient."
The words he whispered in my ear that night lingered in my brain.

After half an hour of crying,I made a cup of coffee and went outside the porch,sat on the swing.

I glanced at my phone,remembering who gave it to me,I took it in my hand and smashed it against the wall,I gripped my cup of coffee with both hands as I sob unstoppably,with my eyes looking to the floor.
I never knew I could hurt that much,I never knew a single soul could handle so much pain,and I didn't know how I'd survive.

Felt like I blanked out on the world,and I was taken aback to the world of misery,sorrow,and pain,so much pain,heart piercing excruciating pain.

"Are you okay? Hey,hey." The sound of a familiar deep voice creeped into my ears,probing me to jump out of my position to be faced with a stern,tall and casually clothed figure.
He was standing on the step,and I didnt even realize when he walked so close by.
He must have been on his customary stroll of the estate.