Falling onto you

Entry #19

"you never believed how strong you truly were no matter how much I tried to tell you, you always denied it."

Summers POV -

"you should go to the party! who knows how long you have been here with me, you need to live little too", I encouraged him.

"I rather be here, with you and not some room filled with people I couldn't possible want to be blinded with", he argued.

I pushed him out of the way already knowing my plans to come and see him there but I will let him find that out another time.

"no! you are going to this party if I have to kick you out and dress you myself!", I threatened him.

a smile came along his face as I notice what I have just told him, "I mean you will get dressed of I will have another stranger dress you", I corrected knowing it was to late.

he leaned me back onto the bed laughing at me as I tried wiggling away from him, "I would love to see you dress me. as you have made a valid point. I will go to the party only ro be sadden your still here", he gusted.

only if her knew my plans...

...

Oliver left a while ago as I pushed him out the door almost dragging him to his car as I prepared what I was gonna wear to the party myself.

I didn't tell him my plans of sneaking out to join him later tonight because I wanted it to be a surprise.

I put on a black shirt and pants, not worried about if I only have one color on I am ready to just see him and be filled with the happiness that follows.

look over as I know the nurses will be back any time soon I start to hide any thing leading to me have been trying to leave as I peck out the door of my room searching for them seeing that its clear I start running to my car.

as I get closer and closer the feeling of peace comes with me as I have never felt so exhilarated by one form of action I have made I get to the front doors of the hospital.

it worked! I am free!

I run to my car with keys gripped in my hand and drive away blasting music feeling free and like I am finally getting a glimpse of what freedom looks like and I own in.

I pull into the place that the party is and take a deep breath, this is the first time I have ever been to a high school one.

I per pair myself as I walk out of the car and into the place looking around before I am met with a sight I could live without.

I am taken back from my own breath for the sight I am seeing, of course he goes after her She has it all but I have nothing she has the hair, looks and I am stuck with the sloppy extras. but I see how She admires me when I'm not looking more than she admired herself and I admired her more than myself.

I see him with a blonde fucking bimbo who is all over him laughing and smiling as he watches her eyes wondering across her body in lust.

god why and I so stupid!

he had me fooled, I was so blind sided by my idea I had of him and I cant help but think of all the wicked things come from memories we once thought we weren't possible from the ones we once loved.

I thought I loved him and he returned the favor but I was so lost in what I wanted I didn't see that he himself wasn't even truly bothered by everything that I cared about.

to him I am just another helpless girl he could fuck and get the story out of. I feel as the water wields in my eyes, I can't, I shouldn't be crying over another person who yet doesn't care what happens to me.