As the Light Lies (Scholar Series #1)

Chapter 34

Chapter 34

I was quiet the whole time ... holding my breath ... until he's done speaking.

I've never thought he's feeling that way when we're still together. I know how huge their company is. Pero pinagdududahan niya pala ang talino't galing niya noon?

Did I become so selfish before? Na dahil sa palaging kong pinagtutuunan ang emosyon ko, nakalimutan ko siya? Hindi ko na naitanong kung ayos pa ba siya?

I know how hard it is to deal with self-doubts. Mostly, when you're pressured. Siya lang ang nag-iisang anak ng mga magulang niya. He's the only heir. Pero taliwas pa sa kompanya nila ang mga hilig niya noon.

If only I knew ... I could've cheered him. I could've said words just so he'd feel confident in himself. I could've told him how proud I was each passing day.

Ang babaw pala ng tingin ko sa relasyon namin noon ... He's always there whenever I suffer emotionally. He hugs me. He cheers for me. But I was not able to check on him when he was dealing with it alone.

Our relationship was so immature that we failed to grow together.

But looking at where he is now...a CEO and a med-student...kinaya niyang umahon nang mag-isa.

I cupped his face and tilted my head. Nanunubig ang mga mata ko. "I'm very sorry to hear all of that, Dion. I'm sorry..."

Umiling siya at tinapatan ng kaniyang daliri ang mga labi ko. "You don't have to be sorry to me..." He whispered almost losing his voice. "I must be the one to say sorry. I could've treated and loved you better...kung naging matapang lang ako. I hate that you met that coward 19-year-old boy. You are a treasure that must be kept. Hindi ka na dapat pinapakawalan..."

He pulled my back down—I fell directly on his chest. He cried as he hugged me so tightly. "I missed you, baby...I missed you so damn much."

I hugged him back as I caressed the back of his head. "That cowardly 19-year-old boy is surely...so proud of what you've become now...." I whispered.

"I sincerely apologize for everything that I've done to you. I'm not expecting you to forgive me that easily. And I'm willing to be punished by you."

My heart aches.

Hinaplos ko ang likod niya. "Just be happy...and stop blaming yourself because of the past...that's my punishment to you..."

Matapos ang lahat, mas masakit pa rin ang mga nangyari sa kanya. Ayoko siyang sumbatan, because between us two, he's the one who suffered the most. I did use another person to forget him and even tried to force myself to enter a new relationship. But him? He did nothing.

Pero hindi naman mali ang ginawa ko, hindi ba? He hurt me too. I just did it to save myself ... to avoid being eaten by depression.

He got into a car accident. And was being comatose for years after our breakup. I didn't even know about it.

Kaya pala simula noong naghiwalay kami, hindi na siya pumasok.

At first, I thought he hated me the most that he couldn't even get into school just to avoid me. I thought he had transferred school already.

Pero matapos pagmuni-munihan ang lahat ng nangyari, dumaan sa alaala ko ang mga naging karanasan ko sa trabaho. Tumikhim ako nang maalala ang inamin niya tungkol sa trabaho ko noong nasa Juarquez Corporation pa lamang ako.

Kung papaano niya kinausap si Mr. Elvis at kung papaano niya ki-nontact ang mga kompanyang nakapalibot sa'kin noon para lamang huwag akong tanggapin.

Tumikhim ako bago nagsalita.