The A-Z Of Sex (Complete)

Green With Envy

"Okay, okay, okay" Aaliyah sits down on the grass next to me whilst I'm making daisy chains and I know this is going to be a conversation I would rather not have but Aaliyah is Aaliyah and she doesn't take no for an answer... ever

"Yes?" I ask innocently

"You know what this is about so lose the big old innocent eyes girlfriend"

"I don't know anything" I bite down on a smile as Aaliyah pouts at me

"You, my brother, New York and all the pouting, crying, stomping and brooding that's come since"

"Shawn's brooding over me?!" I ask, my head snapping up so hard she's bound to know I'm not telling her the truth when I tell her nothing happened and class was just dismissed

"Stomping around like a bear with a sore head, snapping and snarling at everyone that gets in his way"

I can't help the way my stomach bubbles at the thought of Shawn caring about what happened between us, I had assumed he would find another girl and just forget all about it but he's brooding and stomping and that makes me so happy I want to scream

"So you like him...obviously, he apparently like you too, yada yada, Shawns bullshit, Camilas bullshit, so why aren't you together, why are you both moping instead of fuckin?"

"He doesn't like me enough to date me"

"Well that's just more of Shawns bullshit!" Then she stops, she picks at daisy half heartedly and a strange silence falls over us

"What?"

"Nothing"

"Liar. What is it? Is it about Shawn? Tell me!"

I grab her arm and she looks torn

"Please Aaliyah, I like him okay, like really like him and I know I shouldn't but I do and you said it yourself, he likes me too so help me to understand what's going on... please"

She takes my hand and squeezes it "If I tell you do you promise not to tell him that you know?"

I nod eagerly and draw a cross with my finger over my heart

"Shawn was always popular at school, with the girls you know..."

I do know.

I see it every time I go anywhere with him, other girls watching him, drooling over him, making a move on him even through he's out with someone else

"But he was never interested, he just loved his sports and his friends, playing his guitar"

"I think I would have liked him in high school" I admit, unable to stop myself from smiling at the version of Shawn Aaliyah is painting

"I had a friend, Lucia. She was beautiful, black hair, black eyes, olive skin, she was funny and popular and Shawn fell for her hook, line and sinker"

My stomach clenches at the thought of Shawn falling in love with another girl, but i tell myself it was a while again, before we met and try to focus on what else Aaliyah is telling me

"They dated for 2 years, they were actually planning on moving in together when they graduated from college, it was pretty serious, she used to refer to me as her sister and our parents loved her and hers loved Shawn"

"It sounds perfect" I say, my words blazing green with envy

"Apart from she was seeing someone else for almost the entire two years"

My jaw drops open as I cover it with a hand in an attempt to hide my shock but I know I have failed because that was the last thing I saw coming

"He found out at some big college party, the guy turned up and told him everything, made Lucia choose and she chose him, left Shawn standing in his tux as they made out just feet away from him"

"Oh my God! Poor Shawn!"

My heart cracks loudly in my chest thinking of a younger, less cocky Shawn standing in a rented tux having his heart ripped from his chest and trampled on in front of hundreds of his peers

"He was a wreck for weeks, crying and so angry and that's when he started going out and staying out, he found solace in sleeping with someone and being gone when they woke up, no emotions, no feelings just... nothing. Numbness"

I sniff loudly as tears for a broken hearted Shawn threaten to spill

"That's why he won't date one of my friends, it's why he won't date anyone. He's so afraid of the same thing happening again"

"It's why he got so possessive when I was going to go on a date"

"He likes you Camila but he's scared, the question is do you like him enough to fight for him?"

I shift awkwardly on the grass, so many thoughts swirling around in my head it's hard to know what to think let alone what to do

"He taught you to be the girlfriend he wanted and he fell for you during it. Can you put all those lessons into practise and switch roles, you the teacher, him the student and teach him how to love?"

"I uh... I don't know"

"He needs you Camila, he can't live his life running from the past, he needs someone to help him face it and I think his heart has chosen you, do you chose him?

* pretty cheesy ending, I might change it but that's 4 updates written in one day x