𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐭 𝐢𝐧 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐬 - regulus black

chapter one hundred and three

Regulus returned home after taking more rest. Adena was pretty worried about letting him apparate in that state but he assured her he was fine, even though he did not look fine in her opinion. After such a hectic day, she decided to go back to her daily activities which consisted of reading and taking care of her mother in order to occupy her mind, preventing her from dealing with too stressful thoughts that would torture her at night instead. She couldn't stop remembering her boyfriend's body covered in blood, him mentioning he fought his brother which was what had hurt the most, more than any wound. She also thought about how her sister didn't hesitate to fight him. Candace had always hated Regulus, but the brunette felt sadder than ever regarding this ruined and conflicted relationship. She even started wondering how the relationship with her dear elder sister could have turned out this wrong. Of course, Regulus' appearance in Adena's life was the reason, but the two sisters who used to share such a strong bond seemed like they weren't sharing anything anymore. Maybe this relationship was now as messed up as Sirius and Regulus'. Just because Candace was selfish and stubborn and couldn't accept the fact that her sister had found love and happiness in a person that was going against her views and ideals. This thought completely enraged Adena. It wasn't like she chose to fall in love with Regulus in the first place, such feelings were totally unexpected, while her sister chose to destroy their relationship out of disappointment or anger, Adena couldn't be so sure.

The young girl actually felt very afraid of her sister's return since it would eventually come. And it did come, but too soon for her. She wasn't ready to confront her.

"You're here," said the cold voice of Candace one day, as Adena was getting out the kitchen after eating breakfast.

"Yes, I'm here," replied calmly the girl, looking into her sister's green eyes, already burning in anger.

"And where is he?"

"What do you mean?"

"Don't you fucking dare joke around with me Adena!" started yelling the blonde girl.

Adena didn't answer, but her expression became colder, more serious.

"Do you know what he did? Him and his little friends! They killed innocent Muggles and some of my companions as well!"

Once again, Adena stayed silent. Regulus had explained her the situation without going into details. At first, he only hurt those Muggles since he didn't want to kill them and completely focused on the wizards and witches of the Order when they arrived, but he didn't kill anyone. But of course, Candace was completely blinded by her anger, and couldn't even be sure of what she saw that day.

"Say something! How can you still bear him! How can you still bear yourself!" spat the girl in disgust.

"I love him Candace, you should know by now."

"You love him!" she let out a cynical laugh as she said that with disdain. "And you chose to ruin our relationship for a guy like him? You couldn't just date someone else, not that kind of bastard!"

"I can't choose who I want to love! Nor like I can't choose to hate you even if I wanted to! You don't know him, you don't know me, you don't know anything about us and our relationship!"

By now, Adena was letting anger flow into her, not bothering to keep her calm anymore.

"But how can you support him? I don't recognize you Adena. You've never been easy to deal with, but you've never been mean, you've never shown hate to others, just think about Arsène or your friends..."

"Exactly, I've never shown hate to others, only disinterest. When I got to know Regulus, his views didn't interest me the slightest bit, he could think anything, I didn't care! I don't know how or why I got interested in him specifically, but it happened, and I can't do anything about that! As long as he doesn't hurt Arsène, Noah or Millie it's fine for me. And let me tell you he had never shown any hostility to them. But whatever, you're already blinded by the mistaken image you have of him!"

The girl hadn't realized tears of anger and sadness had started flowing as she was screaming her feelings out. She could see her words had struck Candace, who was looking at her with wide eyes.

"So that's it. You prefer putting an end to our relationship for the sake of this thing you have with that evil guy."

"What? No! I've never wanted any of that... Candace, why can't you accept the fact that I'm finally happy!"

"I can't bear that you can be happy with such scum. Anyone but him..."

"I'm sorry I can't please you, but I chose to be happy," concluded Adena with more seriousness and calm than before.

"Is that so? Then I don't have anything to do here anymore. You've made your choice, I'm leaving," said the blonde girl, turning around and climbing up the stairs to her room.

"What..." whispered the brunette, incredulous, not understanding the situation. She followed her sister to her room then realized with horror she was packing her stuff.

"You can't leave... what about Mum..." asked Adena, gulping down anxiously.

"Mum will be fine without me, and I didn't say I wouldn't see her anymore. You're the one I don't want to see," she replied harshly, her burning glare looking straight at Adena before continuing to pack her stuff. When she finished, she quickly vanished, without sparing another glance at her young sister who was standing at the doorframe, paralyzed. It felt like a void had taken place inside her. She stared blankly at the now almost empty room where remained an empty bed, an empty closet, empty walls and an empty desk, as if she had never been there.

Adena had never wished for this to happen. Her sister and her had very different personalities and tempers, but she had always been one of the closest people Adena had, and now, she had left her. The brunette just wanted to be happy. Not once she had wanted this to happen. But she couldn't deny such things had never crossed her mind. Regulus and Candace were complete opposites, and she had never expected them to appreciate each other, especially with how close Candace was to Sirius. But maybe this turn out of things was inevitable, and maybe they had to go on separate ways. And at that moment she hated herself for agreeing with her sister thinking it was the best thing to do. But at least, in that way they would avoid arguing again and again like they hadn't stopped doing for the past three years

That night was sleepless for the young girl. She felt so alone for the first time in a while. Even when her sister wasn't physically with her, she knew in a way they were still together but now their bond was broken. She cried and cried again, until feeling numb and exhausted. She remembered the little ten-years-old girl she was once, all alone without her sister who had left her for long. Adena had felt very sad the day Candace hopped on the train to start her first year at Hogwarts. She was young and alone, swallowing up her emotions as much as she could. All these years, Adena couldn't remember a moment where she had clearly said to Candace that she was happy and thankful to have her as a sister. Still now, she felt guilty for letting her go so easily but like she said it was her choice and she couldn't be stopped.

During the next days, Adena felt weird about this whole situation, she didn't try to show it to her parents whenever she was with them, but it was noticeable. She only explained she had another argument with Candace and quickly changed subject. She hoped her lie was convincing enough since it wasn't just another argument, but a whole fight that ended with both sister choosing different paths.

author's note: hilarious. does anyone remember that crush i've mentioned over a month ago? surprise we're together. i had a nice feeling about him, i'm good at this, at feeling if people like me. turns out he does haha, amazing i love him so much. we've been knowing each other for almost 3 months, crazy. after writing romance for 3 years, i can finally experiencing in real life. anyway i'm sorry for taking so long, i was busy with work, going on dates and trying hard not to kill myself because work is ruining my mental health but it's almost over. i went back to college today and i'm so excited for this new year. i hope y'all are doing well