Catch Me When I Fall (Isla De Verde Series #2)

Chapter 30

I thought I found myself feeling the happiness that I've been wanting to feel until that night happened. I shouldn't dwell in the past, right? But why do I keep on remembering what should be forgotten?

It feels like a storm in a calm weather. An unexpected one and I haven't prepared for evacuation beforehand. Ito ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. After several months that I didn't see him it feels like everything that had happen before were like a film on my mind. They keep on flashing back as if I'm going to die any moment by now.

I tried to smile in front of my laptop. Kasalukuyan kong kausap si Gabriel at nag-face time kami. Five days palang ang nakakalipas simula noong umalis kami ng Pransya at naiwan siya roon pero nami-miss ko na agad ang huli.

If I'm with him, I feel at peace and the moment was always serene. Not like this. Not a mess like the situation where I'm in right now. Kung hindi ba naman mapaglaro ang tadhana ay hindi ko nanaising makita pa ulit ang pagmumukha ng gagong 'yon e!

"I miss you, Hon..." He smiled but it didn't reach his eyes. Pakiramdam ko ay sinaksak ako ng punyal sa aking dibdib dahil sa nakikitang kalungkutan sa mga mata ni Gab.

"I miss you too, Hon. How're you? It's been only five days since I left France. Sabi ko sa'yo h'wag mo namang akong ma-miss masyado e." Binuntutan ko pa iyon ng maiksing tawa.

"I can't help it. You're not here with me. I can't guard my territory properly."

My brows furrowed and I giggled. "You don't have to guard your territory, Gab. It can't be easily penetrated."

"Ahuh? Territories can be easily penetrated if it has a weak defense, Llantina..."

Pakiramdam ko ay iba na ang patutunguhan nito kaya ngumiti na lamang ako. I don't like where this conversation is going. I feel like he doesn't trust me. Iniisip niya parin ba na si Adonis ang magiging dahilan para magkasira ang relasyon naming dalawa?

Because honestly, I really love Gabriel. I owe him big time for staying by my side the whole time that I'm so wreck. He's the one who console me when I was so broken because of that goddamn Fortalejo. And now that I'm happy with Gabriel, I won't let anyone from my past ruin the both of us. Gab doesn't deserve that shit.

"Bye, Gab. Love you."

"Bye, Yana... Take care. I love you too." Then the face-time ended. Mabigat sa loob akong naligo na at nag-ayos para makapaghanda sa pagpasok sa clinic.

It may not be that evident but I could feel that he's not happy that I came back here in Philippines without him. I know it's hard but I just can't really leave Dein.

Is it really Dein or there's something else that you couldn't leave?

"Damn this mind!" I mumbled underneath my breath.

Matapos makapagbihis ay bumaba na ako para mag-almusal. Sakto rin namang naghahanda narin sila Manang Berna ng umagahan at ngayon ay may therapy session si Dein para makapaglakad na siya nga maayos.

"Morning," I greeted.

Dein smiled at me and greeted me back. Tumabi ako ng upo sa kan'ya at sabay na kaming kumain ng almusal. Enoch isn't around because of his work but he'll be back before brunch.

"So... how did it go?"

Natigilan ako sa pagkain. I drink water from my glass as I shot up my brow. I couldn't look at her because I could feel the intensity of her gaze at me. I know Dein, she won't stop unless I gave her an answer.