Bounded World

chapter 33

The Hot water shower splased against kalila's hot naked body as she stood in the shower , she stood silently for a minute as her body that was a little sore embraced the hot water and became a little relaxed . She suddenly felt a tingling feeling on her back and as she was she instantly assumed it to be some insect and jumped up while. shrieking, she quickly turned her back to come in face to face with a smirking Loki . "You want me dead don't you?" She asked him while glaring at him as he just shrugged innocently while his eyes traveled up and down of kalila's body . "Quite the opposite. " he stated while looking kalila in the eyes , who just rolled her eyes and turned her back to him , "can't you ever give me a little privacy?" She asked trying act irritated but she knew it was of no use , "well Ouch that hurts." Loki whispered in kalila's ear as he hugged her from behind and placed his head on her shoulder , they both relaxed in each other's embrace when a smile was placed on their lips . "won't they search for you?" kalila asked loki making him hum back , "let them be ,I have some unfinished business with you ." loki stated making kalila stiffen , "and what's that?" she asked him as she felt him place a kiss on her neck , "disciplining." loki whispered in her ear making her shudder, now kalila knew what was coming wasn't good . "look I am sorry I shouldn't have hanged up on you like that , I know that was wrong .." she had started to explain as she turned around to come in face to face with loki , she looked up at him and cupped his face in her hand as she gave him a pleading look . "so you realise that was a mistake ?" he asked her , loki could feel his subdued anger built up again as he backed kalila against the wall . " I do and I am sorry ." she apologized as her head hanged low , "a sorry won't save you from what is coming for you  " loki hissed back as he grabbed kalila's face harshly and placed his lips on hers in a rough kiss, kaila was quite shocked this behaviour it all seemed to foreign to her . it was like the anger was taking up on loki and kalila felt her heart sink but why ?, she didn't liked him then why did his actions hurt her ?, "loki why are you behaving like this ?" kalila asked him as he pulled away , he looked at her stunned for a moment before smirking and inching his face closer to her neck and smiled as he saw her breathe got uneven . "Don't tell me , you don't like it when I get rough ." loki smirked against kalila's skin as she felt her breath hick in her throat , "loki won't it be good if we get this thing sorted out once chris and tom have left?" kalila tried to buy herself some time , she knew she could convince loki all she needed was to get some time to get her plan into effect . "should I tell you a thing my sweet little cupcake.." he hummed as his lips trailed from her neck to her earlobe , his hot breath hit her ear as his hand started to snaked down. kalila could feel herself hyperventilating as her stomach did flips . "lokì.." kalila got silenced automatically when loki started speaking , "if we get this settled after they leave how would I be able to see you blush everytime you look at me during the whole time they are here." loki's words made kalila bite her lips to hold in her inner shrieks , before she could even put in a word loki turned her around and pinned her roughly against the marble wall with his one hand cupping her pussy while the other was on her neck stroking her neck softly , he scanned her face as he saw her shiver a little and smiled as he saw a hint of fear in her eyes,  "don't worry won't be rough if you are already wet for me ." loki said as his little friend poked kalila's abdomen before loki separated her legs by pushing his one leg between her's and spreading them wide enough to provide him with enough space to thrust into her instantly and making her scream out as a tear slipped her eyes and got mixed with the water flowing down throw the shower, "loki please. " kalila gasped as  he once again thrust into her hard making her feel like she was being ripped apart , it felt to her as if he was using all his force to go as rough as he could . this was nothing like what kalila was used to , they had done it rough before but it was nothing like what it felt like at the moment. "not stopping until I feel like brown sugar ." loki said between thrusts as he held kalila in place by placing both his hand on either side of her waist and leaning his head down to the level of her lips as he looked her lips with his to subdue her screams which came out with each thrust . kalila's hands involuntarily found there way to loki's back as she held onto him hard Dugged her nails into his skin , surely they both were going to have bruises on different spots, but wasn't that the usual though ? kalila was praying for this all to get over as soon as possible as she felt her walls clench around loki's cock as she shut her eyes to stop herself from crying . "wanna come babygirl ?" loki's words even disturbed her further,  they provided no comfort to her aching body nor her aching heart . "go on come for me , be a good girl. " loki's words felt something to kalila that she couldn't quite put a word for but whatever it was , it was not good . loki's hands traveled down to kalila's ass as he groped her ass which made her Yelp and release instantly,  she came as loki still continued to keep up with his pace before he himself released into her and tried to even out his breath as he placed his head on her shoulder . "you are always worth it ." loki commented as he pulled his head away from her shoulder and looked into her eyes to see her looking away wiping her tears , be felt a little guilty at how he went against her will this made him sigh . "look at me brown sugar ." loki whispered as he hooked her chin between his fingers and turned her face towards him to see her glare daggers at him as tears escaped her eyes , "you never seem fail to prove me wrong." kalila's voice was not above a whisper and the disappointment in her voice was visible, although there was a small joke kind off sound in her voice ,it was clear from her expression that she was not even close to joking . on the other hand loki was over ridden by guilt yet he didn't dare to speak a word , "you proved once again that .. " kalila sighed as she tried to calm herself closing her eyes . "forget it ." she mumbled as she turned her back to loki and started to clean herself,  the rest of the time both of them remained silent as kalila rejected every advances from loki. when she was done she started to leave the washroom only to be pulled back by loki as he turned her around and placed his hand on her arms and attached his forehead to her's . "please,I can't bear your silence. " his begging voice did made kalila guilty but she was way overwhelmed,  "I don't have the right to do anything loki , I never had the choice to ." kalila stated as she looked up at him with tears in her eyes ,,the honesty in her eyes made loki's guilt get the best of him, "don't say that my brownie,  you have all the right to do anything. " loki's words were humble but kalila's face was as if see had heard the best joke , a dry chuckle escaped her lips as she looked at loki with mocking eyes . "are you mocking me ?.. , i never had anything even close to rights neither before i met you nor after that... . " there was silence for a brief moment before loki cupped kalila's face in his hands softly and wiped her tears with his thumb. "I am sorry , I..just .. I am sorry .. I don't know what over took me just a while back ..I am really sorry ..I didn't mean to hurt you..not now ..not back then ..I never meant to hurt you." loki trailed off as he a tear slipped his eyes , he didn't even knew why he was confessing it all even though all he wanted to do was hide these feelings from kalila forever but when he saw kalila's broken demonar he couldn't hold back himself .

"does it matter ?" the words that left kalila's mouth only just made loki at her with questioning eyes but he didn't had to wait long as she started to speak again . "does it matter if you meant it or not ?, I was hurt every fucking single time,  I always try to fight away these emotions because I don't want to go to square one after all we did to get here , I am afraid of going back to how it used to be ..*hiccups* I never wanted to say this to you , I don't know how this would have hurt you but ..*sniffs* the you from the square one scares me loki , I am scared of the type of man you were to me back then ....* sobs* that's the only reason I don't say no even when I want to , I don't turn my back on you because I know that it hurts you ....*draws in a breath* and as much as it hurts me to admit that i care about how you will feel , I care about the fact that you will be hurt.." kalila's sobs started to get louder as she looked at loki with eyes full disappointment and sniffed , loki was to stunned to even utter a word,  kalila's words had peirce through him as a sharp dagger . "but.." kalila continued as she inhaled in a long breath and looked back into loki's eyes after looking away , "does it matter to you ?, do I matter to you?-- am I even the one to you or am I just another one of your.." she couldn't bring herself to complete her question as she looked away snatching her face away from his hands and wiping her tears , as much as she didn't wanted to admit she liked loki , it was more than just a crush , she knew it way well . "no matter how much we try we are moving in circles , everytime we would end up in the same place so why bother about how I feel ." kalila completed as she wiped her tear and tried to calm herself , she was conscience of how things went always so she just choose to be cool minded although it almost costed her ever sane cell of her body to maintain a calm mindset . "it does." loki finally spoke up after giving the feeling to kalila that he had an inner war with himself , he finally decided to speak . " you do matter to me kalila , every emotion of yours matters to me ,although I never said it out loud to you ...I was always sorry for what I did to you..I know I did a lot of unfair things to you but it's just..that I am selfish, I am selfish when anything involves you..i am not a man who can have patience ..and I go especially wild when it's you ." loki didn't knew how these words were leaving His mouth but it was like he couldn't himself back anymore , "I know I snatched your life away from you but I couldn't see even a single possible way from which I could get you , even you know that you wouldn't have accepted me if I had came to you the straight way ..so just think that I am selfish and for that selfish reason itself I want to make you happy with me although I sometimes lose control..I can't even explain how much I have learned to control myself since I found you ..." he trailed of as he felt his breath uneven , it felt to him as if a stone has been lifted off his shoulder , meanwhile kalila was just embracing every word that left his mouth , she didn't wanted to admit but his words made her heart thump louder and louder , she didn't wanted to believe his words but she couldn't deny that she knew he wasn't lying and it all made her wanted to forgive him even though a part of her was afraid that everything would repeat . "I never wanted to admit this out loud to you but i can't afford to lose you , I know I lose control at times but I want you to scold me or do anything to get me back to my sense but please please..never abandon me ..I might go crazy if you do ." loki pulled kalila into his embarace as for the first time kalila heard him cry , she was way moved but at the same time she gained her sense quick to comfort loki , she had never seen him break the way he did and it all just made kalila understand that he held her close , she wasn't just another one but the one .