Mean to Be (Mean #2)

Chapter Forty-One

Chapter Forty-One
Crash and Burn

I'm in love with Maxwell. I've been in love with her since I was eight. I never liked any girl aside from her. I've never loved anyone but her. She's everything to me. I love her and now, she finally loves me back.

I always knew I deserved her. I always knew we were meant to be together. Kahit noong mga oras na si Grant ang hinahabol ni Maxwell ay alam ko na para sa akin siya. She was made for me. I knew it even before. She was just too blinded and too stubborn to see it. Now, she's completely mine.

I would be lying if I said loving Maxwell was easy, because the truth is, it's not. Counting the cracks in my heart that she caused would take a long time. I couldn't even count the number of times that I felt pain because of her. Not that any of it stopped me from loving her.

I wanted to protect Maxwell. Cherish her and make sure that no one would ever dare harm her. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nagtulak sa akin para protektahan si Maxwell. All I know is that I don't want to see her get hurt. I hated every fucking time that I witness her cry. Seeing her tears rolling down her face makes me see red. Seeing her hurt always made me want to punch the living day lights out of someone.

When I left her for the first time, I thought I would soon meet my death. That's how much I despised being away from her. I wanted to come back for her, hug her tight and never let her go no matter what. But I was stubborn and so stupid that I chose to save my pride.

She had hurt me too much. I don't even know how I managed to stand by the sidelines and watch her chase my fucking cousin for years. Jealousy ate me the whole time but I was too good in hiding it, when the sad and pathetic truth is that I wanted to be the one that she's chasing. Not Grant. Me. I want her to chase me.

Sa bawat oras na pinipili niya si Grant ay nasasaktan ako. I wanted her to choose me. I didn't want to be the second option. I wanted it to be only me. I wanted to be 'it' for her. I wanted her to own me. I wanted all of her love and not just a tiny fraction of it.

Fuck, I know love shouldn't be like this. Love shouldn't be jealous. Love shouldn't be selfish. But I am. I ache for her attention. I yearn for her love. I never said anything about me being a selfless bastard anyway. I was ruthless, rough, and cruel. I'm the exact definition of mean. The very synonym of it. But I will always be only mean for her. Always have, always will be.

I cleared my schedule for the rest of the afternoon to spend time with Maxwell. She said she wanted to go out on a date with me, and we both know that I'm completely powerless when it comes to her.

I give her everything that she wants because I want to keep her happy. I let her have her way because she's my queen and I'm willing to be her anything, be it her slave.

I slowly pulled the car over when I saw Maxwell standing near at one of the campus' gate. She opened the car and slid right in. I leaned in to kiss her on the lips and she gladly gave me what I wanted. Just as when she pulled away, I felt my heart skipped a beat. Fucking guy, but it always happens that I'm used to it.

"Baby," she turned her head at the sound of my voice. Maxwell raised a brow. Ang sungit talaga. I mentally shook my head before leaning to her and grabbed the seatbelt, clicking it to place.

"Sweet naman." mapang-asar na sabi ni Maxwell pero malawak at matamis ang ngiti sa mukha niya. She's embarassed and she's trying to cover it with her smartmouth.

"What's up?" I asked her as soon as the car was in motion.

Maxwell's already done with her OJT. Pumunta siya ngayon sa University para ayusin ang mga requirements niya para maka-graduate siya within March. That's what she told me.