The New Boy

the fight

"what are you doing?!" someone yells. I turn and look to see my dad.

"daddy!" I immediately run to him and jump in his arms.

"hey baby girl." he says hugging me. "why aren't you in school? and who's this boy."

"daddy," I say as sweetly as I can. "this is Jack my-" he cuts me off.

"your boyfriend. your mother told me all about him." dad says, his voice getting a little protective, but then he smiles. "nice to meet you son." I sigh, relieved.

"nice to meet you too, sir." Jack says, putting out his hand. my dad grabs it and shakes it.

"call me Drew." dad says.

"okay." Jack says letting go of my dads hand.
"why aren't you two in school? didn't you start yesterday?" dad presses.

"yes. we did, but I wasn't feeling well and I was going to go, but then Gavin came home and-" I say, but dad cuts me off.

"Gavin's home?" he says a little too excited. Gavin has always been his favorite.

"yeah. he's in his room. he's." I stop because my dad is already halfway down the hall.

"ugh." I moan.

"what?" Jack asks. I ignore him, walking into my little loft. Jack follows me, not saying anything.

"my fucking dad completely ignores me when he hears about Gavin coming home. everyone likes him more than me. I'm always everyone's second. I'm the screw up. I have problems and they won't ever let me forget it. I just want to be someone's first choice for once." I say walking around the room, at first furious, but I'm crying after the first five words. I sit on my couch and Jack comes over and sits next to me he hugs me and starts to speak.

"no. you're not a screw up. you're my first and only choice. I saw all of those girls yesterday and I didn't even care about any of them because you're all I could think about. and there is no way that I could like Gavin more than you. not even the slightest chance."

"yes. I am a screw up. you just don't know yet." I get up, a little angry and grab a bottle of water from my fridge. I go over and stand I front of the window. I open the window and breathe deeply, not sure if I really want to do this.

I open up the water bottle, and drop the cap. I stick my arms out of the window and pour the water over my wrists, taking off the makeup that cover my scars.

I look at them and drop the water bottle, realizing how hideous I am.

I'm crazy.

how could I do this?

I start crying and Jack immediately picks me up and carries me over to the couch. he lays me down and takes off his shirt and dries off my wrists.

"I'm just a stupid fuck up." I whimper.

"no. you're not. you're beautiful and I love you." Jack says hugging me.

"you're the only one that thinks that." I say between sobs.

"no. Anna, Ryan, Amy, Za-" he starts, but I cut him off.

"no. Ryan and Amy both have crushes on Gavin and Anna used to." I protest.

"those are crushes. friendship triumphs a crush. and Anna used to. she doesn't anymore." Jack says trying to comfort me.

"that's three people. there are a lot more that like Gavin more than me." I say, my tears starting to dry.

"well, I can think of three more. Josh, Troy, and Chris. when you walked into the gym yesterday, you were all that they talked about. it was so awkward for me." Jack says.