Mended Broken Souls (✔️)

Chapter 47

Chapter 47

Tw: Suicide Attempt

Hindi ko matanggap.

Why does fate so playful? Bakit ngayong nalaman ko na ang totoo ay nangyari 'to? Why can't I be truly happy when it comes to my family? Bakit palaging maraming hadlang?

If only I knew a long time ago that he's my father... I could've talk to him about everything. I could've hug him, even for the last time.

I don't know... I don't know why this had to happen. I couldn't understand.

Why does twist after twist means pain after pain?

Why does it need to be simultaneously? Why can't I have my happiness first even for a while after a one revelation?

I reminisced our few interactions before. The first time we interacted where I felt relieved... How my smile widened that was rare to me at that time. Noong pinakilala ako ni Caleb sa kaniya bilang nililigawan niya. His preach and smile that time that proved how glad he was for the both of us.

His homily during every mass that would clearly drawn us closer to God more when he preach.

When he told us the story about his hidden greatest love when he looked at me with yearnings in his eyes and on the bracelet of my hand... Alam na pala niya sa mga oras na 'yon na anak niya ako.

All of those will just always remain as memories. A few memories with my father.

Trenchant what ifs were encircling my head...

"No, Doc! Buhayin mo si Aaron! Buhayin mo ang anak ko!"

Nilingon ko na sa mga oras na 'to ang mga magulang ng ama ko na pareho ring napahagulgol at 'di makapaniwala. They keep on pleading to the doctor but it was futile when the doctor just shook his head sadly.

By just looking at the both of them, I can't help, but to let my blame and hatred towards them grow in my heart. Nawalan ng buhay ang mga mata ko habang nakatingin sa kanila.

Hindi si mama Ashanti ang dapat kong kamuhian dahil biktima lang din ito sa kanila, kundi... sila. They were too cruel and heartless to abuse my father's amnesia.

They made him believe that he didn't have a girlfriend, that my mother, the girl who keep on bugging him wasn't his girlfriend... to make him enter the life of seminary. Another what if passed on my mind.

What if he wasn't involved in an accident during that time? Siguro masayang pamilya kami ngayon... Perhaps they both fought for their love, and for me being in the womb of my mother already amidst the strictness of their parents.

I could've grow up with an entire family that full of genuine love and care... If only the evil parents of my father let him remember things slowly about my mother. If only they cared for me as their granddaughter.

Napatingin ako sa tunay kong ina at nakitang nakatulala lang siya sa bangkay ng ama kong may nakatakip namg puting kumot. I imagined all of the sacrifices and struggles she experienced until now at the death of my father who was her first love...

Dahil na rin hindi ko na nakayanan, niyakap ko siya sa kabila ng naramdaman kong galit dahil sa matagal niyang pagtago sa 'kin mula sa katotohanan.

The side of her story was understandable... We are both victims here.

Mas lalo siyang humagulgol habang unti-unti akong niyayakap pabalik. I could feel her excruciating pain... I felt the anguish of my Mom. Patuloy lang din sa pagragasa ang luha mula sa mga mata ko.

"M-Mama... Why fate is so c-cruel?" I asked her in between of our hug, almost inaudible.

I saw how she painfully shook her head slowly.