Mended Broken Souls (✔️)

Chapter 52

Chapter 52

I was the one who loose her tight hug on me. She looked pained, like she wasn't anticipating it from me, like she anticipated an exchanged tight hug.

I looked at her coldly with my unwavered cold eyes until the vision of her being froze in my mind has pictured out.

I once looked stupid because of her, and I won't let it repeat again. I wouldn't let myself indulge by embracing her white lies again.

"Are you expecting something emotional from me? Are you here to fool me again?" I asked by my cold voice that was paired with my dull eyes.

Kung kanina'y nakaramdam ako ng pagka-emosyonal, ngayon ay namuo ang irita sa 'kin. Yes, I was hurt because of her blank reaction yesterday of seeing me again, but I wasn't anticipating a tight embrace from her... because that might one of her continuous white lies again.

I don't want her to act like she didn't hurt me at all.

Napayuko siya at umiling nang paulit-ulit.

"H-Hindi..." She raised her head to look at me again with her eyes being welled up with tears.

Natigilan ako dahil sa nakitang pangingilid ng luha sa mga mata niya.

"Nandito ako para humingi ng tawad sa lahat ng kasalanan ko sa 'yo. From the start until you knew that you are an adopted child. An apology that is a s-sincere one... H-Hindi katulad noong dati na lahat ay k-kasinungalingan... na niloko lang kita. I'm now... honest."

Pinigilan ko ang emosyong papausbong nang makita ang sunod-sunod na pagpatak ng luha mula sa mga mata niya. I should control my emotion, and just lurk it in me because I remember the first time she apologized.

That was the scene of her... tears cascading on her cheeks like they were real tears of realizations and remorses.

One of the reasons why I was able to control my emotions is... I remember all the things she had done to me. How she hurt me in any ways.

I shook my head. This isn't genuine. Tama na 'yong una. Ayaw ko nang maloko't masaktan pa sa pangalawang pagkakataon.

I remember how I was drowning in the ocean of catastrophe and melancholia when she revealed that all her kind acts and apologies were just a pure white lies. I still can feel how hard it was to save myself from that ocean, hanggang sa unti-unti nang nakaahon.

So today, I won't let her fool me again by her sugarcoated words that were lurked by white lies. And if this apology of her is really genuine... I don't know.

I can feel that this is genuine, but who knows again if there's something hidden behind this?

"You're not telling the truth. Please, if you will hurt me in the end again, do it now. I've learned my lesson, and I will apply it to myself today. Hindi pa po ba sapat ang pananakit mo? Perhaps you knew before that your somehow sincere apology towards me was my weakness, and the sole thing that can melt me so you used that ace to shatter me, to your futile so-called revenge at me for existing in your lives," kalmado kong saad, pero nagbabaga na talaga ang kalooban ko.

She wasn't able to speak swiftly. I was clenching my fists because they were in pain, too.

"I... s-suffered like you. I suffered because I let hatred grows in me towards you. Ako lang din pala ang nahirapan sa ginawa't pilit kong dinaramdam. I'm not here to throw words about my struggles for hating you... I am here to say that since the very beginning, I already faced my consequences of growing hatred in my heart..." she started, and then, fixed her eyes on me again with face that full of remorses.