From The Heart <3 (Poems And Short Stories)

Pathetic

I'm not like her... I can't talk to your mom like she's a good friend of mine, I can't socialize with your family or your friends. All I can do is stare at the floor and feel so out of place and useless. I'm so pathetic I even got my mom to call me so I could escape, like I was in a bad place, but I wasn't. I wish I had my medicine maybe I would have been able to handle it better. But who knows maybe I would have been just as bad, you say you can tell that I'm getting better, but in reality it feels like I'm slipping. I know you want me to go out there and talk with your household but I can't I'd rather cower in your corner. I hate being surrounded by people it's suffocating. It was like being in school In a classroom, and I know it wasn't even close to be like I was there but it felt like it. Your mom, you, and KPM where all around me, I felt so dizzy and disconnected. I couldn't focus or barely even comprehend what was being said. I wish I could be like her. Shes more open and prettier then me. I'm sorry I'm such a loser and I can't do what you want me to do. It seems like all I do is fail and fail I never do the right thing, I always say something or dont say anything at all, I can't satisfy you no matter how hard I try it just isn't good enough, it'll never be good enough. I'm just so useless and I'm all used up just like the shadow said.