Through The Storm (Eminem Fan Fiction)

This Thing Turned Out So Evil

WARNING!! I have to warn you about this chapter...There's discussion about rape, if that's a trigger for any of you.  I didn't go too far with it being graphic. (At least I don't think so) I just need to be able to express to you exactly what is in Valentina's heart.  Thanks for reading!

Marshall POV

"Marshall, I'm so sorry, but I need you to go." Valentina's voice squeaked out.

"What's the matter baby? You're shaking." I ran my hands up and down her arms trying to calm her.

Tears flooded Val's eyes and she started taking deep heaving breaths through the shaking.

"I don't know. Marshall, I'm so sorry." She was starting to break down and cry at this point and I felt like a horrible piece of shit.

I guess when Val said she needed to take things slow she wasn't kidding. I didn't understand it all. I knew she had a bad past in more ways than one, but I wanted to be her safe place to fall. I've been hanging out with her for almost a month now, I'm pretty sure she knows I don't talk to other chicks on the side. Val knows I'm all about her. And apparently, she likes me too or she would've told me to fuck off long ago.

So why won't she just be herself and let me get close to her?

"Babe, come here, come here..." I tried to pull her in to hold her.

"Marshall, please, I don't know what's wrong with me." She cried as she held one hand out in front of her to shield me off.

"Val, I think you're having a panic attack. Here, walk around."

I slowly walked Val back and forth on the balcony as I squeezed her hand and kissed it. I brought her in the apartment and paced with her in the kitchen and through the living room. It's something I had learned in rehab when memories become too overwhelming, and it usually helps. The change of scenery calms the mind. Valentina's breathing calmed down some and I used my thumb to wipe away her tears. I was doing my best to comfort her, but I could tell Val wanted nothing to do with me.

"I'm going to take a shower. I'll be fine Marshall." Her voice was still trembling.

I couldn't believe she was being like this way, "Baby, I really don't feel right leaving you like this."

"I'm sorry Marshall. I feel awful about it, but I want to be left alone."

I left Val there alone in her apartment that night. I texted her when I got home, and she texted back that she was ok, so I just left her be.

Val POV

Marshall made me feel amazing that night; I'm not sure why my body responded the way it did afterward. I don't consider myself experienced with men or sex; I just know that it scares me. I couldn't explain my reaction to Marshall because I didn't even understand it myself. I just know that after he made me feel that good, I felt disgusting, uncomfortable and wanted to be alone. It was beyond embarrassing and I didn't need anyone around to witness my craziness.

Marshall texted me later after he left to ask if I was ok, and I assured him I was which wasn't exactly true.

I knew I had to face this thing that held me back, and I knew I didn't want to be distracted as I did. Marshall tried calling me the next evening and the night after that, but I didn't answer. I sent simple texts back to let him know that I was thinking about him, but I couldn't face him again.

Not just yet.

I reverted to my journal and recited every feeling, emotion, opinion, absolutely everything that ran through my head about my reaction to what happened that night.