Through The Storm (Eminem Fan Fiction)

Sorry, Blame It on Me

Marshall POV

It had been over an hour now, so hopefully Valentina was calm enough to talk to me. And hopefully she still wants to. After dapping up with my boys and telling them I'd see them on Monday, I drove over to Val's apartment slowly to give her some more time to herself. I wanted the other Valentina back. The Val who laughs at my jokes and isn't afraid of me. We can't let this fuck up our flow. Every time I think I feel our relationship moving forward, we take a couple steps back.

I parked the Escalade to slowly get out and ascend Val's stairway. I realized I was nervous when I knocked on the door and heard her coming to answer.

Val was teary-eyed when I stepped in her apartment. She was eating ice cream straight out of the carton and Tupac played faintly in the background. Valentina was wearing a robe that went to her thigh and her slippers. It felt so good just that she opened the door for me. There was a candle flickering on her TV tray making it cozy inside.

"I'm sorry Marshall." Valentina whispered as I stepped towards her. Her hair was wet from her shower and black smudges were still under her eyes from her makeup. Val looked cute and smelled amazing. "I didn't mean for any of that to happen. He was coming on so strong and I didn't want to be rude to any of your friends. I didn't know how to handle myself in that kind of situation."

"Why would you be sorry sweetheart? It was me who acted like an animal and scared you. I wasn't thinking. And fuck Noel, he's always been a fucking cocksucker. You don't need to be nice to that piece of shit!"

"I should have just got up and walked away from him. A real woman would have told him to, Val paused to whisper, "fuck off. See? I can't even say it. I'm so worthless." Her tiny voice sounded like she could cry.

"Babe." I took her face in my hands and looked in her eyes. "Baby it's ok."

Valentina stared at me seriously, "I don't know why you're with me Marshall. Tell me, what do you see in me?"

"I might understand you more than you think Valentina." I took her hand to guide us to sit down on the couch. "Me and Kim used to fight all the time and there were times that it got physical. Not anything like you went through, but I understand the sickness where you think you love somebody, yet all you do is fight. Just because you have a good day occasionally, you think that's good enough. I've been through all that shit, but it's what makes me understand that this, what you and I got, is nothing like that."

"You were fighting just tonight!" She reminded me.

"That's different. What happened tonight," my voice trailed off, "He was in MY studio trying to get with MY girl.  I can't let the motherfucker get away with that, people will say I have no balls.  I would never hurt you Val. How could I hurt you? I love you. I'll never do anything to harm you."

"What? Say that again." Her smile was so beautiful.

"Uh, I'll never do anything to harm you?" I smiled as I looked Val in the eye.

"No Marshall, the other part." She giggled at me trying to evade it.

"Yes, I know I said, 'I love you' and I didn't even plan on saying it, it just slipped out." I smiled for a second, then my eye twitched as I became serious. "But, if I just say it without even thinking about it then, it must be true. I love you, Valentina."

Val POV

"I love you, Valentina."

Marshall caressed my face with his fingertips and leaned in for the slowest, sweetest kiss. I felt like I was floating.

I didn't see that one coming.

"I love you too." I said against his neck when I snuggled into his arms. It felt amazing to finally admit.

I don't know what I had been expecting that night when Marshall came over. I felt like everything that happened that night was my fault. I knew that Marshall was a grown man and was responsible for his own actions, but the fight had started because of me. Now that Marshall told me he loved me and I told him the same, it was like none of that even mattered anymore.

"I want to be with you Marshall. Like, really be with you."

His eyes darted toward the door to the kid's room. It was only a few feet away from where we sat on the couch.

"Not tonight. Not like this." I sat in Marshall's lap to straddle him. "I don't even have my IUD yet. I go this week."

"An IUD is that forever birth control, right?"

"Well, not forever, but yes. It lasts for years. I won't even have to think about it."

"That's awesome. So, we'll be able to feel all of each other." Marshall ran his hands clumsily over my ass and pushed me against him, so that our bodies were tight together. Our foreheads were touching to stare right into each other's eyes. "I'm sorry I scared you like that baby. I never want to hurt you. I'm never going to make you look like a fool, Valentina."

We kissed slowly as Marshall's hands made their way under my pajama shorts to caress my bare thighs.

"I'm sorry." I lightly said as the kiss ended. "I know I've been making you wait for far too long. I just," I thought for a moment to try to explain myself, "I just want to be ready. That's all."

"Val, I'd wait for you forever."

I raised my eyebrows and smiled, "Yeah right."

"I'm serious." He wrapped his arms around my petite body and gave me another kiss. "I'm glad that you made me wait all this time Val because now, I understand you. I know what you need from me. I really care about you a lot, Val. And our first time can't just be a quickie on the couch here."

He patted the couch and it made me laugh.

Marshall pulled me tighter again and caressed my cheek, "Our first time needs to be like," He thought for a moment, "on the beach at a tropical paradise somewhere. I'm gonna take my time loving your body up and down all night long over and over and over again." His fingertips grazed over my thigh and to my ass. "And you're gonna love every fucking minute of it."

Kiss.