90 Day Saioumami Challenge

𝟛 - I'm Sick of Missing You When You're Right Here. ♥️

Kokichi peeked around the corner at his boyfriends, sitting on each other's lap and watching a movie together. They'd been in a three-person relationship for over two years now and Kokichi felt like it was coming to the end. Rantaro and Shuichi were always together, spending their spare time together and going on dates. Without Kokichi.

He felt abandoned, pushed away and discarded. Now that the two people he loved had others that they loved more, they no longer needed Kokichi. All Kokichi wanted was his relationship back, but he didn't want to confront the two out of fear that he'd snap what tiny thread he was holding onto for dear life. To get around his fear, the male decided to try one last time to rekindle the flame by asking them on a date.

Crossing his fingers, Kokichi took a deep, calming breath to steady his broken heart's rhythm before he approached the cuddling men. "Hey, uh..." Kokichi trailed off, his heart beating a mile a minute as he expected the worst outcome he'd been attempting to ignore with every fibre of their being.

"Hmm? What's wrong Kokichi?" Rantaro asked.

"Can... Do you guys want to go out to eat? As a date?" Kokichi muttered, rocking back and forth on his feet. He shoved his hands into his pockets, staring at the ground.

"It'd be nice but I'm tired, I'm sorry Kokichi," Shuichi sighed, leaning his head on Rantaro's shoulder.

"Same here, maybe another time?" Rantaro smiled, turning his gaze to Shuichi.

Kokichi sighed and turned, making a beeline for his bedroom. One of the reasons the male was so upset with the situation was that they were in his home. The purple-haired boy had invited his boyfriends to his home in an attempt to fix the relationship, but all the two had done was sit on the couch and cuddle each other. When they'd arrived, they didn't even hug Kokichi, much less kiss him.

Falling to his bed, Kokichi groaned and stared at the ceiling, his arms outstretched next to him on the soft sheets. Are we done? My first relationship, is it time to quit? Should I keep going until they love me again? "Hey, Kokichi is something wrong?" Rantaro asked from the other side of the bedroom door. Kokichi sighed as he heard the door creak open followed by the footsteps of his houseguests entering the room.

The purplette stayed silent, he didn't have the energy to respond to Rantaro's question. "Kokichi? You know you can talk to us about anything, right?" Shuichi added. He felt the bed dip as the other two sat on either side of him, careful not to squash his arms.

"Every time I ask you both to go out on a date I'm shot down," Kokichi muttered. It's better to talk about it with them... "Shuichi, if it's Rantaro's idea then you're all for it, and Rantaro you're all for it if it's Shuichi's idea!" Kokichi noticed an off glance shared between the two, not one of guilt but one of frustration as if they'd been caught doing something they'd been hiding for years.

"Kokichi we're sorry-"

"No, I don't want to hear it," Kokichi interrupted. He took a deep breath as he sat up glaring at the ground before he launched to his feet, clenching his fists. "You both keep pushing me away and I'm sick of it! I've tried to talk to you both about this so often by you keep ignoring me! All I want to do is fix the relationship but neither of you seems to think it's important!"

Kokichi's voice grew desperate as a frog formed in his throat. His words were strained against his futile attempt to hold back tears. Salty, warm water dripped down his cheeks as the male glared at the floor, facing the people who claimed to love him. What am I doing? I need their love, I need them. "You're just ignoring me all the time and I'm sick of it! I'm sick of missing you when you're right here!"

"Breathe-" Rantaro attempted to reach out for the purplette but he smacked the hand away and continued to weep.

"Shut up and let me speak! You're not making this any fucking better!" Kokichi screamed. "I love you both, I love you both with all my heart but neither of you feels the same! What's the point in dragging this on when you'll never return the love I give you two?!"

"Kokichi, we love you. We've never stopped loving you," Shuichi whispered. Frowning, Kokichi glared at the blue-haired male sitting before him, pointing a finger at his face.

"Shut up. You're not any better than Rantaro," he spat.

"Maybe we should go to counselling to fix our relationship?" Rantaro suggested. "I'm sorry Kokichi, neither of us realised it'd gotten this far."

"You know it was happening? You've just told me you know what you were doing but you didn't know how bad it affected me?" Kokichi scoffed, throwing his arms in the air as he paced the room. "We don't need counselling, there's a simple fix for this! If neither of you can love me then I'm out of the relationship, simple."

Rantaro, Shuichi and Kokichi stared at each other, the threat lingering in the air. "Give us another chance..." Shuichi whispered. Kokichi raised an eyebrow, the tears drying on his face as he no longer felt the need to cry. It wasn't worth crying over spilt milk, after all.

"Another chance to ignore me again? No thanks. I just told you that I'm breaking up with both of you, I'm not repeating myself again. If you'd paid attention to me, you'd know that I hate repeating myself."

Everyone sat silent, avoiding eye contact with anyone as they aimlessly gazed around the room. Kokichi noticed the lack of tears on the others' faces, the lack of desperation to fix a relationship they supposedly cared about so much. Crossing his arms, Kokichi sighed and broke the silence, staring out of the window at the cloudy grey sky. "Are you two going to leave, or do you want my parents to hurt me as you two have?"

Kokichi watched as Shuichi and Rantaro quietly gathered their belongings. He watched as his ex-boyfriends left the home and left him for good.