My little Judith

Two

Alec POV

It's been a couple days since my little mate was born. Every chance I get to hold her, I jump at the chance and don't let her go for ages. To let her go Harriette or Damien has to take her from me. It's not like I can say no either, they're her parents, it'd be wrong of me to not let her go.

I'm starting to think I've become too attached to Judith. Even four days old she's had me craving her touch. Nothing can beat holding her. Not even going for a run or to hunt, I just want to stay sat down and hold her in my arms. I think aunt Harri has figured out why I hold Judith so much, yet she hasn't confronted me about it. I'm not sure if I should tell anyone, especially Harri and Damien.

I really don't think I could handle being pushed away and not see my mate. Okay I admit it's a little awkward but as soon as I get her in my arms, all my worries seem to vanish. It's like she knows how to comfort me already. I feel like a creep and I'm ashamed of what I'm feeling, but I can't help it. I'm just grateful I don't have any creepy sexual desire towards her. I hope I never do because I don't want to be the weird person in the family that looks at little girls.

Maybe it would be best if I distance myself again. That I don't hold Judith and leave things to play out how it would usually. I could always move away and come back when she's eighteen. No I don't think I could do that. I just have to keep my distance, don't get too close and everyone will be okay. I'll be okay.

God why can't there be a guide on how to process having a little mate? I'm so confused. I don't want to be seen as a freak but I don't want to be away from my mate. She makes me feel calm and content, just having her out of my arms immediately puts me on edge. I guess while she's still young I'll feel more protective than anything else. Protective and calm.

"It's time to feed her now Alec." Harriette told me.

"Five more minutes." I looked at her pleading with my eyes. "Please."

"I'm sorry but she needs to be fed. You can have her back as soon as I've burped her." She sighed.

Hesitantly, I carefully raised Judith and handed her safely into her mothers embrace. Judith whimpered but calmed when Harriette started to feed her. I kept my head down seeing as Harri breast-feeds Judith. Even with the cover over herself and Judith, it's only respectful not to look. I don't want to seem even weirder than I already am.

"When was the last time you went on a run?" My dad, Ryker, asked me.

"Couple days." I replied looking at him.

"He's been too caught up in Judith." Tom chuckled.

"Yeah why is that?" Lola laughed with him.

"Got some creepy crush on her?" Liana smirked.

"W-what? N-no! No I don't. It's nothing like that at all. I just, I-," I started but was cut off.

"Well how do you feel while holding Judith?" Aunt Harri glared at them a little.

"Well the one time I did hold her." Liana sent me a glare. "I felt relaxed."

"And how do you know Alec doesn't feel like that when he holds Judith? You don't now stop picking on him. He's not a creep he's being a good family member. Now zip it." She told them.

When I looked at her she sent me a sneaky wink now telling me she knows why I'm so close to Judith. I put my head down now realising how obvious I've been. Maybe I do need to keep away.

"I'm going out." I whispered knowing everyone would be able to hear me anyway. Before I could take a step Harri stood up. "Nope. I need you to look after Judith for me."

"I can't." I muttered not looking at her or Judith. My arms were aching to take her into my embrace already, my wolf whimpering to have her while my vampire begged me to have her in our arms.

"I need to go." I stated and left the house. Before anyone could stop me, I used my vampire speed to run as far as I could. After what felt like forever I stopped.

Tears rolled down my cheeks. Guilt, regret and shame filled me. I'm so ashamed. My hands came down on my head slapping hard. A cry of hurt filled the wooded area around me. Falling to my knees I cried. Why was I given such a young mate? Why can't I be normal and have a mate my age? Why me?

Harriette's POV

As soon as Alec stepped foot out of the front door Judith started crying. I tried consoling her so she'd calm down but it failed. In the days she's been in this world never has she cried like this. My heart dropped thinking I did something wrong and hurt my baby.

"Damien." I whimpered.

"It's okay." He comforted me quickly before taking Judith from my arms. He laid her on his chest with her head over his shoulder rubbing her back seeing if she had anymore wind that was making her unsettled.

"I don't think it's that. I did it already." I told him.

"Maybe she's got a belly ache from drinking too much." Dustin suggested. "Lola got it all the time, remember how she was such a greedy baby. She could've drank more than she could."

"But Lola never cried like this. Once winded she was okay and settled." I said not taking my eyes off of my daughter.

"Should I call mum and dad?" Liana asked me. "I could get them to bring Aiden and Elena."

"Please." I nodded.

What's wrong with my baby?