My little Judith

Thirteen

Alec POV

Once I was done taking my suitcase and bag downstairs, Judith came bounding down the stairs. Harriette was silent trying to hold back tears knowing what I'm about to put Judith through. Damien standing next to her with her hand in his silently telling her it'll be okay. It has to be.

"Where are you going?" Judith asked stopping on the last step. Her eyes holding so many questions she wants to fire at me.

"Uhm, I'm leaving." I told her. "I'm leaving and I don't know when I'll be back."

"What?" Her curious smile fell and her eyes filled with sadness. "You're joking right? The suitcase and bag is empty right? You're just trying to prank me. It's funny, you can stop now."

"I'm not pranking you Judith." I said. The familiar lump forming in my throat as well as the sting of tears in my eyes. "I have to go. Somewhere to sort myself out. So I can process things."

"Figure it out here." She stepped down and came towards me. "Do it here, there's not need for you to leave."

"Judith you don't understand. Not yet, you will though. Some day you will understand and know why I have to leave. Please forgive me." I whispered.

"No. Make me understand, tell me. I'll help you, I can help you. Just don't leave. Don't leave me." She cried.

I kneeled in front of her, on my knees I came to her chest just like she does when I'm standing. I took her hands in mine and gave them a soft squeeze.

"I'm so sorry about yesterday. And because of that I have to leave. I don't trust myself around you. Judith, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me, you will always be the best thing to ever happen to me. Some day, you will understand and then it'll be your choice whether you forgive me or not. If you want to accept me or go our separate ways. I will always love you little one, no matter what you choose. But for now, I have to go and I'll come back."

"Please." Judith sobbed. "Please."

"I love you, so, so much little one. More than I can say." I said. I stood up and kissed the top of her head, keeping my lips there for a few seconds.

I forced myself to pull away and turn around. I grabbed my stuff and went to my car. I quickly put everything in the boot of the car and got in the drivers seat.

"Alec." Judith shouted. Her legs running to get to the car. Before I could change my mind, I started driving with tears streaming down my cheeks. I could see Judith getting ready to change her speed to her vampire speed, only Damien came out of the house and grabbed her.

From the mirror I saw Judith fall to her knees taking Damien with her. Her sobs filling my ears until they no longer did. I drove until I could no longer see them in the rear view mirror. I drove until it all set in, until I had to pull over to give myself a minute. So I could cry, not for me, for the girl I just broke. For the girl that will forever own my heart even if I can't have hers.

After a few minutes, I wiped my eyes and pulled back on to the road to carry on my journey. My phone started ringing, I pulled it out of my pocket without answering thinking it was one of my dads. Only it wasn't, of course it wasn't. Pain filled sobs came through the phone making my heart clench with the same feeling.

"Please come back Alec. I am begging you, please come back." Judith sobbed.

"I'm so sorry little one. I can't do that." I replied.

"Please, Alec. Please. It hurts too much, please. Just come home."

"Judith, I love you. But I have to do this for you, for myself. Please try to understand and I'll explain everything to you when I know you'll understand why I have to leave." I told her. Before she could say anything else, I hung up and turned my phone off completely so I wouldn't be tempted to answer her again and turn the car around.

I so badly want to. I want to turn this car around and go back, to apologise and hold her close to me, to take away the pain I know she's feeling. Judith has never gone a day in her life where I'm not there. I've always been her shoulder to cry on, when she's scared she comes to me for comfort or when she's happy she tells me everything that's made her feel like that. But because of this stupid mate bond I have to leave her.

I love that girl, I will love her until my last breath whenever it will be or if it will ever come. The only thing I hate about it is that she's so much younger than me. In a physical appearance it may not look like it, but in years I'm a lot older. And the way I thought about her disgusted me, I don't want to feel disgusted for the way I think about my mate because it's not negative in any way. She's not ready for anything like that, let alone knowing that I'm her mate.

All I know is that my love for her will never change and it's up to her if she wants to love me in return.

Bit of a shorter chapter but what can you do. I hope you liked it and let me know your thoughts in the comments.