My little Judith

Thirty-six

Judith POV

Alec had eventually fallen asleep after we spent a little time talking. However I couldn't so much as close my eyes. I mean how could I? Moving away from my parents seemed like a big deal and not a thing that could be decided in a one second thought. All I've ever known is my parents and other family members. Would a pack be a good place to be?

The way Alec described it made it seem like a pack is the best place to be. Like a paradise for the wolf species where everyone could count one everyone. I'd love that. I grew up in solitude, not many kids to play around with unless we were at school or there was a birthday party. Other than that I only had my family around and for a long time I was the only child. I would love for my future children to go outside and there be a group of kids waiting for them to play.

I'd be able to talk to other mums and dads about being a parent or to just chat in general. I'd be able to walk around and see my mate working, take him lunch and be with each other when he takes a break. It sounds absolutely amazing. A dream life. We'd all be protected, we'd all help each other. Not that we don't do that here, but there'd be so much to do. I could go to school and become a nurse, or get a job in a shop, be a waitress so everything doesn't fall on Alec's shoulders.

But if we stayed here what would we have? Of course we'd have each other and our family, but Alec would have to find a new job, I'd have to find a job, there wouldn't be much other than working, come home and see the family. But being in Marco's pack we'd have pack things to do, I'm sure people would do gatherings, BBQ's in the summer so everyone could gather around, pups could play, adults can talk.

I'm scared if we'd stay Alec would be unhappy because he has so much going for him at the pack. But I'm scared if I stay I'd be unhappy because I've left my parents, I'm going to a new place with so many new things. What if I get home sick? There's pros and cons to this and I'm so undecided. I wish there was something that could let me know what would be better, better for us and our relationship, better for our future family. Literally anything so I could close my eyes and sleep peacefully with my mate and know the answer.

Sighing, I get up carefully so I don't wake Alec and go downstairs. I could hear the tv on so I know everyone is back. Maybe I can talk to them about things. After getting one of Alec's T-shirts on and shorts, I leave the room in search of my parents. I find them in the living room watching tv like they always do. I sit next to my mum and cuddle into her side. Marco and Whitney on the other sofa with Grayson sleeping between them.

"I don't know what to do." I whispered. My mum left my dads arms and wrapped hers around me.

"What do you mean?" She asked before placing a kiss on my head.

"Alec asked me if I wanted to move to Marco's pack. He painted this beautiful picture and I want to. I want to see what he's been doing for the last three years. He made it sound like it was some paradise or something. I'm just conflicted on what to do." I explain.

"Judith this is up to you. We can't make you do anything. If you want to go then I say go. There is nothing better than having people around you, all with different views and opinions but can stay civil. Pack life is amazing when you have the right people, so many people you can fall back on incase shit hits the fan." My dad said.

"I like it here. This is all I've ever known, I like this. Being able to do anything without breaking rules or offending someone. But Alec likes it there. And I don't want to be separated. He has a job, he wants to find a home and be there where our kids can be normal and play with other kids their age. I mean I had a great upbringing but I didn't have anyone my age." I sighed. "I guess I don't want to leave you guys alone in this big house."

"Baby we won't be alone, I promise." My mum squeezed me tight. "We'd have each other, or we could have Lola and Kyle move in and we go live with uncle Ryker and Dustin. We'd never be alone, we have so many people here to keep us company. Most of all you're more then welcome here at anytime, day or night. We'd come visit you, or we could move closer so we're not far away from each other but not far away from the others either. It's a big step but you're not alone in this, you have us, if you move you'd have Marco and Whitney by your side. But most importantly you'd have your mate, and he will do everything in this power to make sure you're happy and content no matter what. And I know this because you're dad is the same, but I also saw Alec grow up and know him just like he knows you, he'd do anything for the ones he loves the most."

"I just want to make sure he's happy as well." I teared up. "Because it's not all about me, it's him as well. And I would hate myself if I chose something that he's not happy with."

"Oh, sweetheart." My mum whispered cuddling me into her chest while my dad wrapped his arms around me as well.

"You can stay with us for a while." Marco stated. "Nothing permanent. You can see what it's like being in a pack, what Alec is like around the pack members. After, say two weeks to a month, you don't like it then I'm sure Alec would be more than happy to move his life back here. But if you like it, we'd be more than happy to help you move your life to the pack. Your family will be welcome no matter what, you'd have freedom all over the pack. It may sound like we have a lot of rules but we don't. As long as my pack is safe and healthy I let them have free reign no matter where they go. And if they go off territory they let me know when they leave and for how long for safe keeping. Whatever Alec told you, I'm sure he wasn't wrong about it. And I'm sure you'd fit right in with the other pack members."

"Alec said I'd fit in. I'm starting to think maybe we should go." I laughed a little. "I guess I'm just scared of the unknown. Not knowing what could happen."

"Darling if you live like that you'd never get anything done." My dad said. "I agree with Marco. Go for a couple weeks, a month at most. If you don't like it then you know we'd have you live here. We only have one room so if you wanted to have a family here we'd be more than happy to help out at any time. But if you like it at the pack then you should move there. Your mum and I will be absolutely fine, we have everyone here."

"Okay." I nodded. "I'm scared he's be unhappy though. What if he likes it there so much and I end up moving him away from that. He has so much good to say about it and I don't want any of us being unhappy because of where we live."

"You'll figure it out, baby. You and Alec are the only ones who can make them decisions." My mum smiled softly at me.

I nodded and let myself get lost in my thoughts. All I could think about is the what if's.

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