My little Judith

Fifty-four

Alec POV

When the sun was setting, I took a deep breath and headed back home. I don't understand why everything keeps bothering me. I know Judith wants to help, but I don't need our parents there. Especially when I'm trying to be intimate with my mate.

I shouldn't have spoken to Judith that way, I shouldn't have lashed out. Sometimes I just wish we could talk things through, just us. Me and Judith. We don't need them around all the time. I love my dads, I love Damien and Harriette, if it wasn't for them I wouldn't have the bond I have with Judith.

I'm stressed, I'm tired, I can't focus. I feel like I can't do anything because I'm constantly on alert. Mandy's family have threatened me, they've threatened to harm Judith. Marco needs to come to a decision to kick me out of the pack or not for killing Mandy. Most people are wanting me to stay, they say Mandy had what was coming to her. A select few are saying I'm a danger to the pack, that I should be on my way because I'm a freak of nature, I shouldn't be allowed near anyone because I'm too aggressive and blood thirsty.

The only thing that gets me through the day is Judith. My head swarming with her. I do things to get shit out of my head, I cook for Judith, I clean the house, I do everything just so my mind isn't full of worry for my mate, paranoia that somethings going to happen to her. Marco has promised me he has warriors on watch to make sure Mandy's family doesn't get to harm Judith, but there's this pit in my stomach that tells me it's not enough.

I don't want to argue with Judith. I don't want to shout at her. But sometimes I just simply want to be with her, I don't need my parents around anymore. I want them. I'm a grown man, I stopped needing them when I was a teenager, but now that I'm grown I want them around. But that doesn't necessarily mean I want them there whenever we have a problem, no matter how big or small.

I understand that Judith is close with Damien and Harriette, she still needs someone to confide in. But I feel like we can't have any privacy because nothing gets kept secret. I get that our families are very open, but there's just some things that don't need to be said. Like our parents watching us have sex. I don't even know how they got a key to get in. I hoped moving away would give Judith and I a bit more independence, more time for us without anyone barging in unannounced. I guess I was wrong.

With a huff, I opened the door and walked in. The house was quiet. Too quiet. Usually I'd come in to my mates laughter, or her snores because she took a nap. The house felt empty. I walked into the living room to see my dads and Harriette and Damien sat in silence. Not even a word between them. It surprised me because my dad, Dustin, and Harriette couldn't keep quiet for long, they always had something to chat about.

"Where's Judith?" I asked. Tonight I plan to apologise until I'm red in the face and she forgives me, then tomorrow I plan to take her out for lunch, some shopping, dinner, then a film at the cinema. It's been a while since I spoiled her rotten, and this is a good time to do it because she's put up with my shit for long enough.

"She went out." Harriette sighed.

"Where?" I frowned, not wanting to lash out at the wrong person again. The pit in my stomach growing, the paranoia speeding through me at full force. What if they've got her? What do they plan to do if they ever got her? "Dammit someone tell me where." I yelled.

"We don't know. She just packed a bag and left." Damien replied. I ran a hand through my hair in worry and turned around. As I did, her ring caught my eye. It lay on the table, no longer on my mates finger where it should be, should stay until she can't wear it no more. I growled and picked it up, placing it in my pocket. I stormed out of the house again in search of my mate.

I will rip this pack apart if I don't find her. I'll tear people limb from limb until I get an answer as to where she is. Nothing will keep me from my mate, not even herself, not even the strongest of men can keep my away from her. My first thought would be that she's at Marco and Whitney's. Upon my arrival, I pounded my fist on the door.

"Marco! Whitney!" I yelled. My voice strong but if you listened carefully you could hear how much I was shitting myself. I just need to know that she's safe, my Judith, my little one. Marco opened the door and looked at me.

"Is Judith here?" I asked. "I don't care if she doesn't want to see me, I don't care if she's hiding. Marco tell me if she's here and safe."

"No." He shook his head. "Judith isn't here. You know I'd tell you if she was. But you also know if keep you from her if she asked me to. Mate, she's not here. Whitney's passed out and hasn't been in contact with anyone for a couple hours."

"Fuck." I muttered and turned away. I sprinted to Maggie and Wes' house hoping she'd be there. Once again I pounded my fist on the door shouting their names. Hoping anyone would answer in the next five seconds to soothe my racing mind.

"What the Fuck are you doing, Alec? The kids are in bed." Maggie hissed, Wes standing behind her.

"Is Judith here? I don't care if she doesn't want to see me, just tell me if she's here so I know she's safe." I spat out, their faces fell. "Please tell me you know where she is. They threatened to harm her, they said they'd kill her as revenge for Mandy. I beg you, tell me that she's here." Tears glistened my eyes more and more seeing the worry and concern on Wes and Maggie's faces.

"She was supposed to be here a few hours ago. I kept ringing but she never answered the phone." Maggie told me. "I sent her messages as well, but usually when she doesn't answer it's because you and her are mating. I figured you sorted things out and did what usual mates do after they argue. Alec I'm so sorry, she's not here."

Hi, sorry it's been a while. I know I said I'd update regularly but college has been busy so I haven't had time to write as much as I wanted. For now, I'll give you a double update today, but other than that I'll write when I can until I finish the book completely and then will update it all in one hit or a few chapters a day.

Thank you so much for reading. Let me know what you think in the comments.