My little Judith

Forty-eight

Judith POV

After a couple hours we made it to my mum and dads house. My dads car not parked where it usually is and nowhere to be found made me worry. As soon as Alec parked, I didn't wait for him, he didn't even have a chance to take the key from the ignition before I jumped out the car and ran into my childhood home.

"Mum." I called out.

"Up here." She replied. I ran upstairs into her bedroom seeing my mum sat on the end of her bed, her eyes red and blotchy, tears running down her cheeks.

"Where's dad? What's going on?" I kneeled in front of her.

"Your dad is fine. He's seeing grandma and grandpa. I told him to go without me. You know what they're like when we visit, keep us there for hours." My mum laughed a little.

"What's wrong then? What's happened."

"I think I'm pregnant." She whispered.

"That's amazing, mum. Have you done a test? Why isn't dad here for this?" I frowned.

"Because I don't want to disappoint him." She cried. "We tried for so many years to get you, so many times I let him down because I got his hopes up about being a father. What if it's not true? What if I let him down again?"

Alec came into the room and kneeled next to me. His hand on my mums giving her comfort just like he does to me. Just like she used to when he was having a tough time. This family comforts each other when we need it, we are all there not each other no matter what.

"You could never disappoint him." I reassured her. "There's going to be heartbreaks, negative tests and a shit ton of tears. But at the end of the day you're trying. And what comes with trying for a baby comes with emotions that are negative and finally ones that are positive. You just have to keep your hopes high and believe that you can do it."

"Remember when you found out you were pregnant with Judith?" Alec asked with a smile. "I could feel your happiness, people for miles around could've felt it. You just have to hold on to that feeling for when the day comes you get to welcome another baby. It may not be today or tomorrow, but one day it'll happen. And you'll feel that happiness again."

"Have you got tests? I can stay with you while you do it." I asked her.

"I'm scared." My mum whispered.

"That's okay mum. But you need to know, this is eating you up. I'll be right here if it's negative, and I'll be right here if it's positive. No matter what nothing is going to change. Dad will love you, I love you and so does this whole family. We can wait for a new addition, but if we get one now then that's the best fucking news. But you need to do the test to be sure." I told her.

"Okay." She nodded. We all stood up, Alec going downstairs to get some tea while me and my mum stayed in her bedroom. We walked over to the bathroom where there were a few pregnancy tests waiting to be opened.

"I wanted to be sure. I got so many." My mum said trying to lighten up the mood.

"I can see that." I laughed. "Might as well take one with you."

"Do you think you're pregnant?" She asked. "Your boobs look massive." My mum cupped them. "Are they sensitive? Sore?"

"You can stop feeling me up now, mum." I laughed rolling my eyes. "No I'm not pregnant. My periods due in a few days."

"Ah, yes. Periods. Goddess I haven't had mine this month." She huffed out. We both stayed silent and looked at each other. We both grabbed the tests and ripped them open so she can pee in a little tub and use them all to be sure.

After my mum did her business, we dipped all the pregnancy tests in the tub for a few seconds before laying them on the counter.

"Harriette? You and Judith up here?" My dad called. "Why is Alec drinking my damn tea?"

"We'll be down in a few. We've got girly problems going on." My mum called out.

"You know that shit doesn't bother me. A bit of blood ain't shit. You've bled on me before so what's the diff-," my dad opened the door and stopped talking when he saw all the pregnancy tests. "-erence now." He finished slowly. "Which one?" He asked.

"Not me. Not for a while yet." I replied.

"Baby, if you thought you were pregnant why didn't you tell me? We could've done this together."

"Because I've let you down so many times. Literally three weeks ago we were crying because it didn't happen." My mum cried. "I'm tired of letting you down like this."

"Come here." He said and pulled her to his chest. "You could never disappoint me, Harriette. You worry me too fucking much, you shouldn't be doing this on your own."

"Am I invisible or something?" I gave them a sassy look making my parents laugh.

"No darling you're not." My dad chuckled. "But this is something you should do with your partner, no matter the outcome. We just have to keep trying if it's not the answer we want."

"I don't want to." My mum muttered.

"What?" He frowned.

"If these tests are negative I don't want to carry on trying. It's taking it's toll on me too much, and I can't handle the hurt that comes with it. So if these are negative I think I'm going to get my tubes tied to make sure there's no way of having to worry about this sort of stuff." She explained.

My dad looked down but nodded. "Okay." He whispered. "Okay. If that's what you want. We'll go see the pack doctors when you're ready."

My mum nodded and buried her face into my dads chest. They stood there, we all stood in silence for a few minutes. I know Alec is by the door, he's there for my mum and dad if things get tough.

"Mum." I spoke up after five minutes. "I think you can look now."

She shook her head and tightened her arms around my dad. He kissed her head and held her close giving her as much comfort as he could.

"Want me to look?" He asked her. She nodded fisting the back of his T-shirt. My dad grabbed one of the tests and looked at it. His face didn't change. No reaction. I could hear my mum crying. My heart hurt for them. I know they wanted so many kids, I guess things are different for them, natures way of telling them this just wasn't the time.

My dad put the test down and grabbed another one. One by one, he looked at them. Each test he grabbed his eyes got wider and wider. Frowning at his unusual reaction, I walked closer to them and looked down. All but two had a positive sign on it. The two that didn't were negative.

"Oh my goddess." I whispered. I'm going to be a big sister.

"I'm so sorry Damien. I'm sorry I couldn't give you another child." My mum sobbed.

"Harriette, look at me." My dad held her cheeks so she'd look at him. "We don't have one child. We're gonna have more." He smiled widely. My mums face dropped, she let go of my dad and looked at all the tests.

She dropped to her knees and cried. My dad instantly sitting with her and hugged her. Their hands on her belly while they cried. Tears rolled down my cheeks seeing the two most important people in my life happy. And the fact I'm going to be a big sister is amazing, I never thought I'd be able to say I'm going to have a sibling.

"I'm so happy for you two." I smiled and got on the floor with them joining their hug. Alec stood by the door with a smile on his face. "I'm gonna be a big sister."

"Yeah you are." My mum placed her hand on my cheek and smiled widely. I pulled her into a tight hug.

"The best fucking news." I laughed making my mum and Alec chuckle.

Double update. Hope you enjoyed.