My little Judith

Fourteen

Judith POV

It hurts. It feels like I can't breath, like I'm drowning and no one's there to pull me up from under the water. My chest is tight, my eyes sting with tears and all I can do is kneel on the ground begging, hoping that, that car would turn around and come back. All I can feel is my dads arms around me, stopping me from going after him.

I called, he answered and didn't come back. I called again, voicemail. And again. Voicemail. Again, and again, and again, all that came back through the phone was that annoying woman's voice of the voicemail. Then I gave up. I gave up because I got tired, but all I could do was lean against my dads chest wishing it was the man who knew how to comfort me without trying, just his presence alone could put me at ease without him even trying.

But he's gone. I don't know when I'll be able to hug him again, or when I'll be able to rely on him when I need him the most. All I know is that Alec is gone and it hurts more than what I've ever felt.

It feels like I've been rejected.

It feels like I've asked out a crush and he pulled the nastiest glare and rejected me. Like the happiness I felt about asking him out shattered in a so much of a second. It feels like I've lost a loved one, like he's died and I'll never see him again.

"Come on, let's get you inside." My dad muttered. He pulled me up but my legs feel weak, my knees buckled again but I didn't fall. My dad pulled me up and carried my bridal style while all I could do was cry into his chest.

My mum sat on the sofa with her hands clasped to her mouth leaning forward on her knees. Her eyes red with shed and unshed tears waiting to fall down her cheeks. Me on the other hand, tears fell, they got replaced in my tear ducts, they fell. Like a horrible cycle of pain, tear after tear, sob after sob. I swear I could hear my heart shatter when it finally dawned on me he wasn't going to turn around.

He isn't coming back.

"Come here my baby." My mum opened her arms out to me. My dad sat me next to her to which she immediately wrapped her arms around me letting me cry into her chest.

"Why did he leave?" I sobbed out. "Get him to come back. Tell him to come back." My voice broke as I cried to my mum.

"He can't baby. I'm so sorry." She whispered brokenly while she rocked us back and forth. Another sob choked out from my lips at her words. He isn't coming back.

I ripped myself away from her grasp and ran to my bedroom. I pulled my phone from the charger and quickly went through my contacts finding his name. Alec ❤️.

"Please come back Alec. I am begging you, please come back." I sobbed.

"I'm so sorry little one. I can't do that." He replied.

"Please, Alec. Please. It hurts too much, please. Just come home."

"Judith, I love you. But I have to do this for you, for myself. Please try to understand and I'll explain everything to you when I know you'll understand why I have to leave." Alec said. Before I could say anything else, beg for him to come back, he hung up.

Another rack of sobs came out. The bang of the phone sounded as it fell to the floor. Leaving it in the middle of my room, I walked over to my bed and laid down and covering my body up to my neck with my covers. I closed my eyes but the tears kept falling, my nose started blocking up so I had to breathe through my mouth. All that sounded in my room was the sniffs I made so I could breathe and the occasional sob.

All I could do was cry. And I fucking hate it.

Alec POV

After a couple hours I reached a friends house. The place I would be staying until I could find my own place to live for the next three years. Goddess this is unbearable. Yet I'd rather this and Judith hate me than have her be scared and uncomfortable around me because of these stupid wolf and vampire urges. Fuck that.

When I got to the familiar white house, I parked my car and got out. I got my stuff out of the boot and locked my car. Just as I got to the door, my friend opened the door with a wide smile on her face. Her pearly whites showing as she saw me.

"It's been too long, Alec." Whitney smiled and pulled me in for a hug.

"Yes it has." I chuckled lightly and hugged her back. I felt her arms squeeze around my neck keeping me in longer.

"I'm sorry we have to see each other on these circumstances. But I'm excited to meet her when you're ready." She muttered while rubbing my back.

"I'm not going to lie, it fucking hurts, whit. It really hurts." I gave a pained chuckle as tears once again filled my eyes.

"It'll be okay." She said then pulled away. "Marco, Alec's here." She yelled.

"Fucking hell woman, you don't need to shout." Marco replied as he walked down the hallway of the house. "It's good to see you again Alec." He smiled at me while wrapping his arms around his mate, his hands resting on her belly.

"Strong heartbeat." I smile listening to the thump of the pups heartbeat. "Boy or girl?"

"Waiting for it to be a surprise. And Marco keeps saying the same thing." Whitney laughed.

Marco is a friend from when I went to school. He's the alpha of a pack that is allies with Damien's pack. So while waiting for Damien and Judith last night, I called to ask if I could stay with him for a while and of course was welcomed with open arms. Whitney is Marco's mate, a human but knows about us and of course that I'm a hybrid. I don't think there's been a better Luna for a pack.

Even though she's been Luna for two years, and only known about wolves for the same amount of time, she's amazing at it. She really lives up at to title of Luna. And Marco as alpha. Both are one of the greatest couples I've ever met, I'd course coming under Damien and Harriette and my fathers. No one's relationship is more romantic than my fathers.

They let me in, Marco helping me with my stuff to a guest bedroom. We set my stuff down and I stood in the middle of the room looking around.

"You can stay as long as you like. Even if it is until she's eighteen, we could use more people in this house. Well, until we fill it with our own little army." Marco chuckled.

"Thanks. But I'll work, get myself a house or something. I think I need to be on my own for a while. Have a place for backup incase she rejects me." I told him.

"I don't think she would. But you never know, huh? Honestly though, stay for as long you need and want. We got a small freezer and got blood bags from a neighbouring clan for you. We have no problem with you staying." He sighed.

"I don't want to burden you. You have a new baby on the way, your first one at that. You don't need me to be worrying about when you've got your own child to look after. It'll take some time, but I'll be okay eventually."

"Alec, you're my best friend. Please, if there's anything I can do to make things easier just let me know. You don't have to suffer alone." Marco put his hand on my shoulder.

"But I deserve it. I deserve to be feeling like this. I must've done some fucked up shit in my past life for the moon goddess to punish me like this." I laughed humourlessly. "Do you know what it's like to be like this. To have to force yourself, to separate yourself from your mate because of your age. Do you know what it's like to have thoughts of doing things, things that are normal for mates to do but your disgusted with yourself because she's fourteen years old. There is nothing you can do to help me, Marco. Why would you want to help someone who is sick in the head to have thoughts about a child like that?"

A/N: Another chapter for you guys. Hope you liked it, let me know your thoughts in the comments. Sorry it's been a couple days I've got a cold and I'm sleeping a lot so I can't write. But I'll try my hardest to get more chapters out for you.