My little Judith

Fifteen

Alec POV

"You're not sick in the head, Alec." Marco sighed. "I don't agree with this behaviour, not in any way shape or form but think about it. You're not just some random man going some random kid. There's a lot of differences between you and Judith and what you're calling yourself. It doesn't take a genius to know that you hate it, but when it comes to mates no one can control their urges no matter what age they are, some just know how to control it better. And I think you rushed into this decision too quickly and didn't give yourself enough time to see if things would improve or not."

"Alec, you're not a pedophile, I know what one looks like and what one is, you are far from it. Judith probably let off a few pheromones and didn't realise it and if made your instincts stir because that's what happens when you're around your mate. I know it's difficult, I was nineteen when I met Whitney, she was fifteen. I know what it's like to have to stay away from your mate because of people that jump straight into the deep end and don't let you explain. As long as Judith's parents were okay with you being around her, and trusted you around her, I don't think you have anything to worry about. At first it's scary, I know that. I felt fucking petrified walking up to Whitney and introducing myself. Do you know how that looked? I got glared at, people spoke about me because I walked up to a girl who was alone. This is why it took so long for Whitney to become Luna, to know about me." He sighed.

"The age gap is no where near as big as yours, but I get it. The constant fear of people treating you differently because of something you can't control. The urges to love, protect and die for that person, your mate, is uncontrollable. I'd die for Whitney and that pup she grows for me in a heartbeat, and I know your the same for Judith. The only thing that is wrong, is the age. Other than that, it is normal to feel lust towards your mate. I felt it straight away with Whitney, I wanted to drag her away and into the forest and fuck her into oblivion, but I couldn't because I'd be arrested and make a name for myself. Even when she was eighteen I didn't touch her fearing people still thought that I was a predator lurking after a still growing girl. Alec, I know it scares you to think of Judith that way because of what people will think. Been there done that. But at the end of the day, as long as she trusts you and you don't act upon those thoughts unless she initiates it all and is the right age, I don't see why you're running away. She needs you just as much as you need her. Just your presence alone brushes away the bad in her day, the same for you. I understand why you're doing it, but I don't see why you're doing it." Marco finished and left the room.

He understands but he doesn't see. Because that makes a whole lot of sense. Marco was always say stuff like that, it confused the hell out of me all the time. Damn, I never knew Marco met Whitney when he did, this was the first time hearing about it.

I guess you never really know anyone like you think you do. With a sigh I sat down on the bed and rubbed a hand over my face. What could I do? I don't want to be around Judith while having thoughts of wanting to mate with her, to take her away to keep her all to myself. But then again, I want to be around her, just her company is enough for me and brightens up my day even if I've had the worst day.

The guilt is eating away at me for leaving her like that. Her sobs still fresh in my head as I left. I know there are other ways around this, but I want to be safe rather than sorry. I know for a fact Judith would put me in my place if I ever did anything to her that she didn't like, she knows that she can say and do anything to me and I will do what she tells me to do.

I would do anything for her. If she told me to get down on my knees I will kneel at her feet. If she told me to walk and don't stop, you know I'm walking until I collapse, until I physically can't walk anymore. I would lay down my life for that girl and she doesn't even know the power she holds over me.

I pull my phone out of my pocket and turned it on. I had messages from my parents, Lola, Damien and Harriette and missed calls from them. With a soft sigh, I answered all the worried messages from my parents and other family members letting them know I'm okay and that they don't need to worry. However, I know worry isn't something new in the family. We all worry about each other, even if it's over the minor things in life.

Once I got that out of the way, I opened my contacted and looked at Judith's name. Her name with a simple red heart next to it. I feel lost, I feel drained, but most of all I feel regret. I know I made this decision to leave and come back in a few years, but I can't help but regret it. But I know that I'll only regret more things if I stayed.

Holding my breath, I pressed on her name and lifted the phone to my ear. The annoying rings echoed, usually she'd have answered by now. Just when I was about to give up, I heard the pain filled, croaky voice of Judith come through the phone.

"Alec?" She whispered.

"Hey little one." I muttered lowly, a small smile on my face. "I, I just wanted to see how you're holding up."

"Not good." She sniffled. "My heart hurts, Alec. I just want you back." Judith cried. Tears stung my eyes knowing she's hurting because of me.

"I know, little one. It's just better if we're not together for a while. We need a bit of time apart so I can figure things out so I can be better for you. I'm doing this for you, so I don't hurt you, Judith." I told her, it's not exactly a lie, just not the whole truth.

"I don't care, Alec. Please just come home. If you tell me the problem I can help in any way that I can. Even if you stay with your dads, please just come back." She begged.

Now I understand what Marco meant when he said he understands, but he doesn't see why.

He understands that I left because I don't want to hurt Judith in any way. But he doesn't see why I left and why I'm putting this poor girl through all this hurt.

A/N: hi I'm back. Thank you for being patient with me. I'm feeling better now so I'll be updating frequently again.

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