My little Judith

Thirty-seven

Judith POV

After spending some time with my parents and getting something to eat, I went back upstairs. Instead of going to Alec's room, I went into mine to shower and get some pyjamas on so I don't wake him. We both need sleep and while I'm awake, I'd rather not wake Alec.

As soon as I'm in my pyjamas, I head to Alec's room loving that I can sleep beside him. It's even better that he wraps his arms around me, I feel content and safe. When I get to his room, I carefully shut the door and go over to the bed. I get in beside him, Alec lifts his head and gives me a soft smile before wrapping his arms around my waist and pulling me towards him. He holds me close to his chest kissing my head then laying his on top of mine.

"I love you, little one." He whispers huskily.

"I love you more." I reply and snuggle into his warm chest.

When I woke up I laid there knowing my mate was still sleeping. His even breaths and calm and relaxed body told me he was still asleep. However I knew he was awake when he tightened his arms around me and kissed my cheek. I smiled a little and turned over so I could look at him.

"Morning little one." Alec muttered, his voice husky from sleep.

"Good morning." I smiled getting one in return. I nudged his nose with mine before pressing my lips on his. Alec deepened the kiss leaning on his side so he was over me a little holding himself up by his arm, the other holding my cheek.

"It's going to take a little time to get used to waking up like this." Alec smirked when we pulled away.

"Yeah. Just a little." I whispered. I stayed silent with my arm wrapped around his neck, my fingers playing with his hair. "You're gonna need to help me pack. We leave tomorrow."

A wide smile grew on my mates lips. "You're gonna move with me?" Excitement glowing in his eyes as he stared down at me. This is what I feared. What if after some time I don't like it? I'd hate myself because he'd do anything for my happiness, even if it meant moving away from the pack. But what would I do for his happiness?

"Not move." I whispered watching the excitement slowly disappear. "I spoke to mum and dad last night. Marco gave me the idea of staying for a while, a month, to see what it's like being in a pack. He said if I liked it we could move there, but if I didn't everyone knew I tried."

"Tried what? Little one, if you don't like it I can't force you to live there. We'd figure something out." Alec smiled, but I know, I can see that it's forced. 

"But who am I to move you away from what you like? You'd do anything for me, for my happiness and it feels like I'm not doing anything. You'd be making all these sacrifices and you're doing it now. What kind mate am I if you don't like it where you live, because I didn't like it where you love it?" I frowned.

"Judith you're willing to go. Even if it's for a little while, you're still willing to go. You're leaving to go somewhere unknown with me and people you've never met before, saying goodbye to your parents for a while. You are making a sacrifice to make me happy and I can't thank you enough for it. But little one, I will be happy wherever you are. Whether it's here, at the pack or somewhere else. You do so much for me you don't even know it. You'll do so much for me in the future that I could never do. You will do so much for me that I can never repay, so the least I can do is live where you're comfortable, where you're happy." He replied.

"And what is it that I will be doing in the future for you?" I laughed a little.

"Give me children. I'd never be able to do that without you. Your body will change, your hormones will be all over the place, a baby will change everything about you. And I will do anything to make sure you're comfortable wherever we are. Okay so it's one thing that you'd be doing but it has so many factors to it, so many things that could go wrong mentally and physically. But most of all you'd be doing it more than once. Maybe we'd even end up with more than one, twins, triplets as a possibility. Judith I know you want pups, and I will give that to you as soon as you are ready. Therefore I will do everything in my power to make sure our forever home is perfect and to your satisfaction. I can't promise you that."

"You won't change you mind about me? Even after birth and when my body changes. Stretch marks, hormones, really weird cravings that are disgusting but would be like heaven to me. You wouldn't get disgusted with me?" I asked.

"Never. And if a man ever got disgusted by his wife giving him such an amazing gift, he isn't a man and has much growing up to do. I know your body will change, and I'm okay with that because it shows that you've done such an incredible thing. And I know if roles were reversed if I know you'd be saying the exact same to me."

"Yeah." I whispered. I sighed and looked down. "I want to give you everything like you want for me. But what if I don't like the pack? I have so much guilt knowing I'd be taking you away from a place you clearly love."

"Okay I have to stop you there. Judith you won't be doing any of that. Please, you don't have to feel guilty. I've lived in two places, you've only known this place. I'm dragging you away from a place you love. You never know maybe here or the pack won't be for us, maybe a house somewhere in a city or hidden away in the country will be for us. We don't know, all we can do is try new things and see what we like. But you also have to keep in mind here or the pack would be for us. Trying new things is scary, but when you have the right people around it could be the best thing to ever happen. I'll be there the whole time, right there beside you holding your hand every damn step of the way just so you know your not alone in anything. No matter what you choose, there is always something new for us. We could travel, keep it the two of us for a few years before we find somewhere to settle down. But it's all on your terms, I'd follow you anywhere, little one. I'd do anything for you just like I know you'd do anything for me."

"You're the fucking best, you know that. How the hell did I end up so lucky?" I smiled at him as tears rolled down my cheeks.

"You're not luck, I'm the lucky one to have you. The luckiest mother fucker on this planet." Alec smiled and leaned down to kiss me before moving his body between my legs.

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