My little Judith

Sixteen

Alec POV

A small sight left my lips. Now I just feel like a complete prick for doing this to her. For putting her through this and I can't help but feel like complete and utter shit. Judith deserves the world yet I'm here making her sob through a phone begging me to go home.

"Judith, I need you to listen to me." I sniffle. "I love you, so fucking much and I won't stop saying it until you understand fully. But I can't come home, I can't stay with my dads because of the reason I left. I promise you Judith you'll understand one day. One day it will all make sense and I will be able to tell you why I had to leave, the full truth. But for now all I can tell you is that it's safer for us to be separated, to be away from each other. We can talk like this, we can FaceTime and text whenever you want, I will answer every single call and message you send me. Trust me little one I will spill my guts to you when the time is right. It's just that right now isn't the time."

"Alec." Judith whispered. Her voice full of hurt, breaking from her crying.

"Judith." I whisper back.

"I am begging you. Please, come home." She spoke slowly, as if she spoke normally she would break down all over again.

"Judith." I whisper again closing my eyes. My head fell forward as my hand gripped my phone tightly. Even with my eyes closed the tears still seeped through my eyelashes and down my cheeks.

"I will not stop begging, Alec. Not until you're back in this house.
So I beg you, please come back." She argued.

"Judith, I am begging you to stop. Please, I feel like shit putting you through this. Little one if I could tell you right now trust me I would spill my fucking guts out to you, but I can't. I just need you to know that I love you and nothing will change that, no one will change that. Please trust me on this and when I see you next it'll be as if we hadn't even spent time apart. Judith you are the best thing to ever happen to me, but I am begging you to trust me on this."

After a couple minutes of her silently crying on the phone, came her whispered reply. "Okay. But please Alec don't leave it too long. I just want to hug you again."

"And I want that too, so much little one. Tell you what, if you don't hug anyone I won't either. That way when we see each other we can give it our all into that one hug. How does that sound?" I smiled sadly.

"I would like that." She said. "Promise me you won't hug anyone, not one person."

"I promise you with everything I have little one. With everything I have and more." I told her.

It's been a couple days since I left. I explained to my parents why I left and that I would like them to keep it on the down low. By that I mean I told them everything about Judith being my mate and the reason I left, they were understanding and reassured me that they weren't going to judge me.

Judith and I talk everyday. Five days to be precise, I have been with Marco and Whitney for five days and not a day I haven't spoken to Judith. She phones me or I phone her before we go to sleep. We FaceTime and she usually falls asleep, I don't want to sound creepy but all I do is stare at her beautiful face before I hang up. Sometimes only a couple minutes, sometimes hours, sometimes I wait just before she wakes up before I hang up.

While she's at school we message. I do jobs for Marco around the pack which he pays me for so I am able to get my own things. I'm able to get my own food, snacks, drinks, all that jazz. But most importantly I'm able to get my mate gifts to make sure she knows how much she means to me. Yesterday I sent her flowers which she would get when she gets home from school today.

Small things that she can look at and it would remind her of me. Of course I send Harriette and Damien money to go to the shop for me to get her, her favourite snacks, which I also did yesterday so Judith gets her favourite snacks and a bouquet of flowers from me. Like I expected, a FaceTime call came through with Judith's name.

"Sorry, it's Judith." I looked at Marco and Whitney. We were eating dinner so they smiled with their mouths full while I left the table and went to my room.

"Hey. How was school?" I smiled once I answered.

"Hi. Same shit different day, you know. But these made it 100 times better." Judith replied turning the camera around to show me the flowers.

"Do you like them?" I asked with a smile on my face. Only my question was answered when I saw her face again which had a massive grin.

"I love them. All my favourites. And chocolate and sweets. How did you send it all?"

"I have my ways, little one. I'm glad you like it all. Marco paid me yesterday so I wanted to get you something that would make you smile. I'm glad I did because seeing you like that means the world to me." I told her. Judith's cheeks burned with red while she smiled and looked down.

"Thank you, Alec." She then looked at the phone again.

"You're welcome, little one. I'm sorry I'm putting you through this, but I hope one day you will forgive me and see reasoning as why I had to leave. I love you little one." I sigh a little.

"I understand." Judith replied while sitting down at the dinner table. Her eyes looking just over the phone making me smile because I know she's looking at the flowers.

"It's weird not having you here though. I went into your room the other night, I don't know why but I thought you'd be there. Ready to tell me to stay on my side of the bed but I'd wait until you turn over so I could cuddle you. I cried when I saw that you weren't there, it really fucking hurt but I know you wouldn't leave me if it wasn't serious." Tears glistened in her eyes, one tear slowly rolling down her cheek.

My heart hurting for her, I wish I could be there to hold her, to wipe her tears away but I know if I ever did I would want to take her away from the pain. My instincts would be to distract my mate and make her thoughts only about me and not what's worrying her, to fill her mind of me and what I'm doing to her.

And this is why I left. Because Judith is no where near ready for me to do anything to her. The furthest thing I've done with Judith is cuddle her, but who doesn't cuddle their 'family' especially when they're close with them. Growing up Judith and I were inseparable, she'd always want Alec, even as a pup Judith would cry until she was in my arms. If one is older than their mate they feel the bond first, the connection is made so the younger one would also feel the connection but don't know why they want to be around the older person.

Judith always came to me for things. I feel as though I had robbed Harriette and Damien's experience as parents considering they had been trying for a baby for so long. It wasn't until I told them that I felt like that, that they reassured me they understood it would be that way. The time they did spend with their daughter was cherished and I could see that, but for the comforting side to things, Judith would come to me.

As she got older and started developing into a young woman the questions weren't to me anymore, she went to her mother and rightly so. I understand women's bodies to an extent, I don't know the ins and outs so her going to Harriette made me thankful because if I had given her the wrong information, it wouldn't have been good.

"I'm so sorry, so fucking sorry, little one. I wish there was more I could do. I just don't want to scare you, I don't want to hurt you. I only want to protect you but I can't do that if I can't even trust myself around you. Please don't cry because of me, I'm not worth those tears." I tell her. I'm not, I'm not worth crying over.

"I just miss you. I want my Alec back." Judith whispered, her voice breaking.

"I want my little one to be happy. Can you do that for me? Smile, laugh, go out with friends. Just remember to not give my hug away, that's for me like mines for you. I'll plan to come see you soon, okay. I have a lot of work to do for Marco, the pack is good but there's things to do to make it great. I promise you little one, I'll be hugging you before you know it."

A/N: hi sorry it's been a couple days. I have to write a couple chapters before I get them out to you so I know that I can give you guys an update once or twice a day. While I was sick I couldn't do much writing so I didn't have any chapters ready so I'm doing it all so there will be daily updates with one of two chapters.

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