My little Judith

Forty-three

Judith POV

We stared at each other in silence.

It wasn't until Alec looked down that I got my answer. I nodded my head and bit my bottom lip to keep my sobs quiet. With that, I turned around to walk away. I stepped back when Alec was in front of me, tears in his eyes.

"I don't want anyone but you." He whispered.

"I don't believe you." I shrugged. "You say that now but actions speak louder than words. Your silence was deafening and it fucking kills me. Hours ago I was so happy to be here, I was ready to spend the rest of my life here, I knew as soon as I saw the house and then people I knew that I didn't need a week or a month to decide. This was going to be our home, our family home where our kids would grow up. But now all I want to is go home."

"Judith," Alec shook his head. "She doesn't mean shit to me."

"You say that now, but what about tomorrow? Or in a few weeks, hell even years you could change your mind. She could kiss you and without realising it you could kiss her back, forget about everything and fuck her." I said. "I don't want to be around you right now, so you might as well go to her. Go and be with Mandy because she obviously means more to you than you're letting on and I don't have the energy to fight you on this, I don't have the energy to question you when you come home from work. Alec I don't want to be awake at night laying next to you scared out of my mind wondering if you and her have done something that I'm not aware of."

"That would never happen."

"You don't know that." I stated. "So please, by all means go be by her side. I'll be gone by the morning then you and her can live the rest of your lives happily in this pack." I said before walking around him towards the stairs.

He didn't let me. He pulled me to his chest and held me there. "Let go of me." I glared at him. He stayed silent. "Let. Me. Go." I growled. His grip tightened and once again he stayed silent. "Let go of me." I shouted hitting his chest. Punching, smacking, anything to make him let go of me. "Let go of me." Alec held both my wrists together with one hand stopping me from hitting him, he squished them to my chest after turning me so my back was to his chest.

"Let go of me." I screamed. "Let me go." I sobbed, I screamed, I tried to elbow him so he'd let go. Every attack, every move I made he didn't let go. He just held me to his chest tightly.

I stopped trying to get out of his arms. My body fell limp, him holding me up as I sobbed. "Let me go." I begged not wanting to be in his arms. Not when she was there.

"I will never let you go." He murmured. "Never. You are mine, I am yours. You will be with no man, no woman, no other being other than me. I will never look at someone like I look at you. I will never let you go, I will follow you everywhere no matter where you go. I will never marry anyone other than you, no will will ever carry my children other than you, no one will take my last name other than you. I refuse to let you go, I will never let you go. You are mine Judith. I am yours, not Whitney's, not Maggie's and I am certainly not Mandy's. I belong to you. I bare your mark, not theirs, I will never have what I have with you, with any other person. I will not leave you to go to someone else, I would rather be here with you no matter if you want to hit me, scream at me or fuck me. Judith I am yours, you are my Queen and I will not settle for anyone else because you are it for me. Judith you are mine until I take my last breath, you are mine until my heart no longer beats. I will never in this lifetime or the next will leave you. I will follow you, I will find you even in the next life because I love you so fucking much."

I lean against his chest still crying. All I want to do is lay down, I want to sleep, I want to forget that this ever happened, I want to wake up tomorrow with my mate, watch him work and do what he does best, I want to walk home after a long day and cook for him while he showers, I want to eat with him and laugh at his cheesy jokes. I want to lay in bed and make love to my mate, I was to look at him stare down at me with so much love in his eyes then kiss me like he's saying he loves me a thousand times.

But I can't forget. I can't go to his work because she's there. I can't come home and cook for him because all I'll do is be bitter and resent both of them. I can't lay in bed and make love to him because all I'll see is him holding her close looking at her like he's supposed to look at me. Talking with her like she's his mate and I'm some other bitch in the pack. I don't want to feel like that.

"I don't believe you." I whispered in a broken sob. "I don't believe a fucking word."

"Please, believe me." He begged. "Please baby, please believe me." He whispered on repeat, like a broken record he repeated those words and all I could do was stand there while he held me against his chest sobbing. He still wouldn't let me go.

"Let me go." I whispered. Finally his arms loosened and fell to his sides. Slowly, I turned around and looked at him. Eyes red and puffy from crying, his bottom lip gently shaking as he looked back at me. I'm sure I look the same. Broken people staring into broken eyes.

After a minute of looking at Alec, I swallowed the lump in my throat and looked away. I turned my body so I could walk around him. This time he didn't stop me, this time he didn't reach his arms out to hold me. This time, he didn't say a word.

When I got to our bedroom, I dropped on the bed and sobbed into the pillow. It smells like him. The whole room does. Only now he smells like her, not himself nor me. Her. I pulled my phone from my pocket and scrolled through my contacts. Once I found the number, I pressed on it and put the phone to my ear.

"Hey baby, how's everything going? Are you enjoying it?" My mum asked enthusiastically.

"It hurts." I whispered and sobbed to my mum down the phone. I jumped when I heard the front door slam shut, no longer feeling Alec's presence.

"Judith, baby what's happened? Do we need to come to you? Do you need us to come get you?" My mum asked, worry lacing her voice.

"I think me and Alec just broke up." I cried.

A chapter for you lovely peoples. Hope you enjoyed it, definitely doing a double chapter so keep an eye out for one soon.