My little Judith

Forty-two

Judith POV

I tried to keep him out of the house by slamming the door behind me. But Alec was too fast and managed to get his body between the door before it slammed shut. Rage filled my body, all I want to do is go back and beat her until she stopped breathing. To suck the life from her so she could never get the chance to touch what's mine ever again. Goddess, he rinks of her.

"What the fuck was that?" Alec shouted, I stood in the middle of the living room. "Answer me for fuck sake. What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"What's wrong with me?" I muttered. I turned to look at him giving him a glare. "What's wrong with me?" I shouted. "You let someone else touch you. I haven't even so much as looked in someone's direction since being here. I haven't even shook hands with people, male or female because my touch is yours. Yet as soon as that bitch comes along you're hugging like she's your mate, like I didn't even exist even though I was right in fucking front of you."

"Wow. So you beat her up because you were jealous?" Alec rolled his eyes with an unamused smile. "I didn't beat Adam, and you were literally in a relationship with him."

"It's not the fucking same." I spat out. "I didn't know shit, you knew everything. Yet you still let her push me out of the way so she could get to you. Other than my parents and you I have never hugged anyone longer than what is necessary. You hugged like she was your girlfriend. Not a quick hello hug, but five goddamn minutes I was stood there looking like a fucking mug while you hugged. Then you come parading to the clearing like your mates. Holding her close, laughing at her like she's better than me. You clearly didn't see the way you looked at her, but I did. And you know what I saw?"

"Really? What did you see?" Alec scoffed. "You didn't see anything because she's a friend."

"Yeah it shows. If I wasn't here them people would think she was your mate. You looked at her like she was the only girl on this planet. The way you should look at me, yet you haven't."

"You're being ridiculous. Mandy is just a friend. She came to be an apprentice a couple months ago after finding an interest in being a blacksmith. What is it with women reading too much into shit that isn't even there."

"Right." I whispered. "Nothing there. I must still be some dumb little girl who's only connection to you is family and some shitty mate bond. Just some stupid little girl to warm your bed." I spat out.

"Don't be so dense, Judith. Nothing happened between me and Mandy. She's a work friend, she was there when you wasn't."

"And how could have I been there?" I shouted louder than before. "You left me! You didn't explain to me why you left. Tell me how I could've been there for you when I was a child? When I didn't know anything, I was just learning my body, about what it meant to actually be mates with someone. But you didn't even stay, you ran the second you could."

"I'm not going over this with you again." He muttered.

"Then don't say shit like that." I yelled crying. Pent up emotions filling me that I don't know how to get out of my system. "You paraded her around like she was the centre of your world. Do you know how that feels? And don't even bring Adam into this, because I never once did anything like that with Adam while you were around."

Alec stayed silent, all he did was look at me. Two minutes I waited for him to say something, but he never did. I get it, he does like her. But while I'm around he won't go through with it. Worry no more, I'll get out of your hair.

"Do you love me?" I asked him.

"Of course I love you, Judith. But I don't like you when you're like this." He answered.

"Do you love her?"

"No. Mandy is a friend." He stated.

"Do you have feelings for her?"

"Obviously. She's a friend, just like you have feelings for Adam."

"No, I care about Adam like he's a brother. Just like I love and care for my parents and grandparents. I don't have feelings for them. There's a hell of a lot of a difference in that. So I ask again, do you have feelings for her?" I asked again.

He didn't say anything. "You were a child. I thought about it, goddess knows I thought about it but I never acted upon that. I love you, only you, I have feelings for you and only you, I care about you and only you. Mandy means nothing to me, she's a friend."

"Then you lied to me." I whispered.

"I never lied to you Judith." He argued.

"You told me that you never looked at anyone after I was born. But you looked at her, you said you could never look at someone the way one day you'd look at me. You look at me with love, but you don't look at me like I'm your mate. You look at her like that. You told me you had no one, do you know how much I fucking hated myself because I was with Adam under the knowledge that you were here alone. All I am to you is something to get your dick wet, you feel obligated to do all that you've done is because of this mate bond. There is nothing keeping us together, so if you don't want this, now is your chance to say."

"You're taking this way out of line now." Alec growled.

"Am I?" I cried. "I had to stand and watch you hug someone who is not me, more emotionally than you've ever hugged me. I had to watch you laugh and hold her close to you like she was thing to keep you alive, like she was that breath of fresh air that I'm supposed to be. I don't feel like that Alec, I feel like I'm only here because you feel you need to, because we're mates. I'm sure she's almost healed by now, why not invite her over, you can have who you want then. I'll be out of you hair in the morning." I went to walk away.

"Is that what you want? You don't want to be mates anymore? You don't want me?" He asked stopping me in my tracks.

"I love you so fucking much it's physically hurts. I can't help but look at you like you're the only person in this world. I never want to be around anyone but you, I don't want to do anything but lay in bed and stare at you because I could never get tired of that." I told him in a whisper. "But seeing you look at her in a way I've never seen you look at me, with no where near as much love as you looked at her with. So the question is, do you not want to be mates anymore?"

Triple update, I'm on a damn roll. I hope you've enjoyed these updates. I've loved writing these last few chapters, need a bit of drama so here it is. Last update but there will be more tomorrow.