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Chapter 44

I didn't go on Alisya's funeral, I don't want to. Cause as I imagine it all it pains me, to the point that my mind suddenly went blank. Herman got in prison, I let him see Alisya on the last funeral before she'd cremated.

It's still fresh, everything still fresh in my mind. All I did was stay in my room and look at the ceiling flatly.

"Jess, breakfast is ready. Come on, let's eat"tawag ni daddy sa akin.

"I don't have an appetite"malumay na sagot ko.

"Jess, can I come in"rinig kong sabi ni Ace. Hindi ako sumagot, narinig ko lang ang pagbukas ng pinto at pagsara nito at ang pag upo niya sa kama.

"Jess, what are you doing? This is too much, ni hindi ka pumunta sa funeral ng Ate Ali mo, wala ka rin nung cremation niya. Hindi lang ikaw ang nasaktan sa pagkawala niya,marami tayong nasaktan. Don't do this to yourself sa tingin mo ba na gugustuhan niya ang ginagawa mo? No, she didn't! If she's just here she might be shouting at you,right now. Masakit ang mawalan but please don't be like this, nasasaktan kami sa ginagawa mo. Pinapabayaan mo na ang sarili mo and this is not you, ang Jessa na kilala namin, palaban, matapang, at may pagpapahalaga sa sarili. Hindi ganitong tulala at walang ibang ginawa kundi magkulong sa kwartong to, dahil Jess hindi ka kriminal, ang mga kriminal na yun ay nasa prisinto na. Hailey and Herman is in prison they'll pay on what they did."

"I..... I don't know what to do..."mahinang sabi ko.

"Alam mo, you just need to keep going. Cause this is life, we need to keep on moving to be on track and for us to not be left behind. Jess we're still here, your dad, brother and sister is still here, you have us...... you have me"lumapit siya sa 'kin at hinawakan ang mukha ko.

"Look at me, Jess. Look at me, sweetie"malambing na sabi niya.

"Hmmm....."I hum, while looking at him. Masuyo n'yang hinaplos ang pisngi ko papunta sa labi ko.

"This is not you, the Jessa we know is a fighter, independent, and strong. Not this weak now just tell me where it hurts my sweetie and I'll do my best to make it better...."natawa ako ng mahina ng kumanta siya, maganda naman ang boses niya, natawa lang talaga ako sa pagpapa-cute niya.

"That's it! That's the Jess I know, my sweetie. It's will be okay, we're are still here, no one want this to happened neither expect it. Will be fine, hmmm...... "sabi niya at niyakap ako, I hug him back and let my heart cry it out.

Hinayaan niya naman akong umiyak, tama naman siya. No one expect it, and I need to keep moving. We have a lots of enemy and I need to protect my family,my love once at all cost, para hindi mangyari ulit yun.

We stayed like that for a couple of minutes bago ako kumalas, huminga ako ng malalim at pumikit ng ilang segundo. Nakarinig ulit ako ng katok at bumukas Ito, this time it's not just dad, all of them are in the door watching us.

"Let's eat"nakangiting sabi ko. Sabay na tumakbo sila Jane, Christine at Kassey, mahigpit nila ako niyakap. Natawa ako ng mahulog si Ace sa kama dahil sa pagkakatulak sa kanya.

Sumunod naman si Dad,Kuya at ate.
I still have them,I may not succeed but I promise Mom and Ate Ali, I'll protect at all cost. After that warming moment in my room, pumunta na kami sa dinning table para kumain.

We eat happily,talk about many things. Nagtuksuhan pa kami ng dumiskarte na si Sam kay Jane, ganon din kay Keil na nagpapahalata na kay Kassey. Nasali ako ng nagsimula na namang lumandi si Ace sa 'kin, na palagi ko na lang iniirapan.

"Siguro naman, makaka pasok kana bukas,Jess. Tambak na ang lesson at project mo"seryosong sabi ni Kassey.

"Ako na bahala, I'll talk to our professor about that. Sabay tayo sa second semester, wag kang mag-alala"natatawang sabi ko, dahil ramdam ko sa kabila ng seryosong tinig niya kinakabahan siyang di ako maka pasa sa first semester.