Wild Series #6: Twisted by Wild

#TBW13

Entry 13

Dax put my things in the back seat and we both hop in at the front. I looked outside the car through the window and waited for him to start the engine but he didn't.

I glanced at him and found him watching me meticulously. His eyes are darker than it ever been, and I know that shade of his only shows when he's serious. But other than stern, there's something behind his expression that shows a different emotion. Suppressed anger? Concern? I don't know. I have no idea. But one thing I'm sure of is he cares for me.

I bit my lower lip and my eyes fell to my trembling hands. Ilang minuto niya akong niyakap sa labas kanina habang bumubuhos na parang gripo ang mga luha ko. It took me long before I calmed myself from crying but I realized that I'm still shaking.

I've been inside the mansion for my whole life, tried dangerous activities, and learned self-defense at a very young age the reason why I was never scared, I never cried, and I was never seen weak. But tonight, and earlier this morning, Dax saw the person I was also shocked to see. He saw the weak me. The girl who never cried burst into tears.

Of all people who can find me in that state, he's the only person who's there. And I don't think I'll ever see that part of me if not because of him. Totoo ang sinabi ko kay Mommy at Daddy. Sa dinami-daming tao sa mundo, si Dax lang ang nakakita sa kung sino ba ako. He saw beyond the embellishment my parents put in me to show the world. He saw and accepted me.

He never feared me. He never ignored me. He never walked away from me. He stayed and he will always come back whenever I need him. He's that person to me.

I felt the warm rushed throughout my body when I saw his large hand cupped mine. Kinuha niya ang dalawa kong kamay at kinulong sa kaniya, binibigyan ng init ang malamig at nanginginig kong mga kamay. He didn't ask me what happened, he only remained silent until now. Hindi ko alam kung natatakot ba siyang buksan ang usaping iyon o dahil gusto niyang bigyan ako ng kalayaan na magdesisyon kung sasabihin ko sa kaniya ang totoo.

He made me feel that I'm in control of my life— that I can decide for myself.

"I-I..." my voice croaked and my lips shiver.

Kinagat ko ang aking labi dahil ayaw tumigil sa panginginig ang labi at boses ko.

"It's okay." He assured me and his hand went to my cheeks as he brushed the tears away.

I lifted my eyes and found his. His face is close to mine and I wonder how can he do that— look like a kid when happy and look like a man when he's not joking around. I saw how his eyes fell to my lips and I'm sure I saw pain cross them.

"I left home." Alam kong alam niya na iyon pero iyon pa rin ang lumabas sa bibig ko.

He didn't react, he remains to examine my face and keep brushing the tears away. Humikbi ako at hindi ko namalayang kinukuyom ko ang aking kamao. When he saw that I'm doing it again, he held my hands with one of his hands, securing them.

"I got angry at them and I become impulsive..." I paused to stable my breath because I keep on sobbing.

He leaned more towards me to fix the hair sticking on my wet cheeks. He tucked some strand of my hair behind my ears while he listens to me.

"N-Noong isang linggo ko pa inisip na magpaalam sa kanila kung... kung pwedeng mag-rent ako ng apartment malapit sa school kasi... kasi..." hindi ko matapos-tapos ang sasabihin ko.

I closed my eyes and feel the warmth of his hand on my cheek as I tried to control my tears.

"You've shown me what normal life is and I want to try it. Kahit alam kong hindi sila papayag pero umasa pa rin ako. That's why I have my stuff ready. I didn't plan to leave home that way but they went far already. I can't take it anymore. I'm... I-I-I'm..." my breath hitched as my sobs grow wilder.