Wild Series #6: Twisted by Wild

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Entry 20

I marched through the quiet foyer with no trace of them but I'm sure that they are home. Lumiko ako at dumiretso sa living room hanggang dining area. Madilim na sa labas nang makarating ako sa harap ng mansion.

Dax's NMAT exam is just few weeks away from now. Ginugol niya ang mahabang panahon sa pagri-review para makasiguradong makapasa at hindi ko hahayaang hadlangan iyon ng mga magulang ko. They have to release Dax right now.

"You knew that I didn't run away with him." Bungad ko sa kanila nang matagpuan ko sila sa pool area.

Nakaupo si Mommy sa kulay itim na sofa malapit sa pool habang may hawak na wine glass. Samantala nasa kabilang silya si Daddy at pinapatay ang apoy sa dulo ng kaniyang sigarilyo sa isang ashtray sa maliit na coffee table. Mom tilts her head to acknowledge my presence but my father didn't even bother to glance at me.

I hate them.

"Well, good evening to you, too." Mom greeted sarcastically.

I ground my teeth and fist my hands. I hate how they are acting so casually as if they didn't do something evil to someone who has never done anything bad to them.

Sa mga nakaraang buwan, may parte sa puso ko na lumalambot para sa kanila. Umasa ako na maaaring nagbago na sila, na baka mali lang ang pagkakaintindi ko sa kanila katulad ng mali nilang pagkakakilala sa'kin. My hope for them turned quiet too high that tonight, I can't help but wish that they were never my parents. Sana ay hindi ako pinanganak na Delavin. Sana nabuhay na lang ako ng simple kung saan pinapahalagahan ng mga magulang ko ang pamilya nila. Hindi katulad ng dalawang taong nasa harap ko ngayon na walang ibang inisip kundi pera at kung paano kokontrolin ang lahat ng bagay sa paligid nila.

I never said I wanted to be their daughter. Why I never had the chance to choose my parents? Why they didn't have the chance to choose their own perfect daughter? Siguro kung may pagpipilian sa una pa lang, siguro'y hindi ganito kakomplikado ang buhay ko ngayon. Sana'y hindi sila naghahangad ng sobra pa sa kung ano lamang ang kaya ng kanilang anak. I couldn't be the perfect daughter they want me to become because I want my wings spread and not tear off. They couldn't be good parents I want them to be because they only think of themselves. They were never selfless when it comes to me. They never treated me like a daughter.

And it pains me to think that all while I am thinking this, I still love them and I wish so hard that they could change but it's just so impossible now.

I'm done with them.

"Look at you," she stood and studied me from foot to head with a disgusted expression on her face. "You're a mess."

I neither blink my eyes nor move as I watched her in the eye. She has to look at me in the eye and find that I am no longer the daughter she had. They lost me the moment they chose their greed over me.

"Narinig ko na noon mula sa ibang tao na nagsusuot ka ng mumurahing jeans at t-shirt pero," dismayado siyang umiling at inangat ang tingin sa'king mga mata. "Is this what you really want, Tri? Mukha kang basura sa damit mo—"

"I didn't run away with him and you knew that." Putol ko sa mga sinasabi niya.

I'm not here to talk to her about my make-over.

She put down her wine glass on the table and walked towards me but stop a few inches away when she got near. Hindi ko tinanggal ang tingin sa kaniyang mga mata at mas lalo lamang nadadagdagan ang galit ko para sa kanila. Their eyes are evil as their doing. I wish I never had her eyes.

"I'm living alone in my apartment which I'm certain you knew from the very beginning. Hell, I bet you are both updated with my life." I added, fuming.

She didn't react and it frustrates me. My heart's racing deliberately and pounding furiously.