Alphas Choice

T W E N T Y - F O U R

My wolf softened at her mates words. She wanted to reach up and touch his face to console him. I, on the other hand, felt emotionally drained. He was all over the place. A wave of panic and sadness hit me all of a sudden, and it nearly took my breath away, I pushed that down, and my anger came back. He was going to listen to my feelings, and then I was leaving, I'm tired of waiting on a man to decide if he will pick me or not, I deserve better.

I growled and pushed against him, trying to get loose from his grip. He didn't budge.

"Move out of my way. Now." He just looked down at me pleading. "Can't you see I don't want to be here? I told you I wasn't here to be some toy for you, and that is what I have become. You take pleasure in teasing me, you give me demands about what I can't do like running or meeting with the warrior's, and keep calling me your little Mate but at this point I'm not." I spat out. "A true mate would not reject or abandon them for a title or power. Camilla is the right fit for the throne, not you! Now I am going to pack my things because I am clearly not appreciated by you." I called my wolf forward to bring the authority he had no choice but to obey. "Now, take your hands off of me." I said with as much anger as I could, I just wanted to go cry on my bed.

It looked like he tried to fight it, but he released me and took half a step back.

"Please don't go." He whispered.

The look on his face shattered my poor heart, I needed to get out before the tears started. I ran down the hallway, my hip screaming, and I limped down the stairs as fast as I could. I ran to my room, slamming the door and locking it.

Hannah, could you and Felix please pack your things? We are going home, and if you are still with Myra, please send her to my room.

Yes, Grace, right away.  She sounded sad.

I got up to unlock the door and went and crawled on top of the blankets. I couldn't hold back the tears and the feelings that I felt. It all came pouring out. Was I really leaving my mate? Denying my wolf her soul mate, her other half? She was quiet, but I could feel all her pain.

I'm sorry.  I said to her with all the emotions we were feeling.

Why didn't he just choose us, Gracie? I don't understand, we broke his wolf, did you see his face?

He broke us, too. I said to her quietly.

We both felt abandoned. The mate bond was strong, and both of our wolves wanted each other, but he was stopping it and was indecisive. He can't blame us for not wanting to wait around forever.

There was a quick knock, and Myra came in. She looked depressed.

"Awe, Grace, I'm so sorry." She walked over to the bed and sat next to me. "Are you really leaving?" I nodded silent tears still streaming down my face. She pulled me into a hug, and I hugged her back.

"I wish things were different." I mumbled to her. "I feel like things are being left unfinished." She nodded and pulled back some, tears showing in her eyes. "Oh Myra, please don't cry."

"I'm sorry. I know you have only been here a few days, but both you and Hannah have been like god sent to me. There aren't many she-wolves in this pack, I was so happy to have you two here and thought you would be staying with me. I understand why you are leaving, I wish you could stay, but this is your heart and your future, not mine. I do hope you will allow me to visit you sometime and keep in touch?"

"Of course you can come visit!" I let out a little sob and quietly continued. "You have no idea how much I wish things were different, Myra. I hope you let Eli know I will miss him as well. He is a breath of fresh air in this place, and please let Anna know I'll be in touch." I hated goodbyes.