merder mafia leader in love

chapter 100

I hear a gunshot. I pull away, looking back. The guy is dead on the floor. Mark shot him. I let out a big breath.

I look at derek. "Baby, Open your eyes!" I say. He opens his eyes slowly. "You need to stay awake baby.. please, I need you" I whisper, crying uncontrollably.

"I'll be fine" he says quietly. I hear ambulance sirens. "Mark can you go get them?" I ask. He rushes downstairs.

I look at my hands with his blood all over them as i keep a hold of the cloth I've been holding to the wound.

I cry more. "Mer" he whispers. I look into his eyes. "You'll be okay" I whisper. He inhales a sharp breath. "You can't die after only 3 weeks of being married.. thats the worst divorce ever" I say.

He laughs but groans, his head tilting back in pain. "Sorry.. sorry" I whisper.

We see the paramedics coming up the stairs. "Kiss me" he whispers. I sob quietly before pushing my lips onto his gently.

I pull away slowly. "I love you darling" he whispers before closing his eyes. "Derek! Der!" I try to get him to wake up again. "Get over here!" I yell at the paramedics. They run over.

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A few hours later:
I've been waiting in the hospital waiting room hours for him to get out of surgery.

"Is anyone here for Derek shepherd?" A doctor walks over. "I'm his wife" I stand up. "You can see him now" he says. He leads me to his room.

Tears run down my cheeks as I walk to his bed. He has his own private room with loads of security outside.

I stroke his cheek gently, the part that doesn't have tubes in the way. "Is he going to wake up soon?" I ask. "I want to talk to you about that" he says.

"We don't know when.. or if.. he's going to wake up" he says. My heart drops. "He- he could die?" I ask tearfully. "There is a possibility" he says.

"How big of a possibility?" I ask. "Meredith" Mark walks into the room. He needed to take care of things at the office so he didn't come in the ambulance but he must've drove here.

"What's going on?" He hugs me. "He might die" I sob into his chest. "I'll come in later to talk to you more about it?" The doctor says. "Please" Mark says. The doctor leaves.

I pull away from him. "I'll get you a drink, there's a vending machine in the hall.. you're gonna get dehydrated" he says as I wipe my tears. "Okay" I say. He leaves.

I walk over to derek. "Honey, you have to wake up.. okay? Because I can't- please.. I can't live without you" I cry.

I look at the machines. "Derek, I-I'm pregnant" I say. I found out this morning. I was going to tell him today at dinner later.

No change on the machines. "Baby" I run my fingers through his hair, kissing his head. "Please.. please wake up" I rest my head against his.

I sob quietly, pulling away. I kiss his head. I stand back up straight, holding his hand. Mark walks in, passing me a drink. I drink a little before putting it down.

"He's gonna wake up, meredith.. he's derek.. he'll never die" Mark says. I try to let out a laugh but start crying again instead. He hugs me.

"Shepherd you better wake up right fucking now" he says as I sob into his chest.

4 hours later:
I finally decided to go home. I hate to leave him but Mark said I need to get some sleep.

I get changed into one of his shirts and a pair of my pyjama shorts before climbing into bed.

I cuddle his pillow. I smell his scent on the pillow and immediately break down. I sob hard into his pillow. I eventually cry myself to sleep.