Hope in pain

Chapter 37

Arani

Everything is a blured to me.
Their are so many memories flow in my mind endlessly.

I might cried a lot for everything that had happened to me.

There no reason to doubt it when my lost memory came rushing wildly in my head there was like flashbacks in movie but for me it seems like time travel.

It was like dream but seems surreal and that time I knew there was the part of the past. The reality behind 'why my Mom abondoned me' it's not like my father told me the reason. It's more than that... My mother was a villain in my life...I wonder if she was truly death from heart attack o that's a lie that my father had to make story to believe me that...

Ako naman na walang alam ay naniwala.

Who wouldn't?

Naniwala ako dahil sinabi n'ya.

"STOP! I can't just abondoned my daughter!...sasama ako sayo, wag mo lang hilingin sa'ken na gawin ang gusto mong iwala ang aking anak...please...Edel.. she's precious to me.." My mom sob in my dream.

She is talking by a man in front of her, while my younger self listening to their conversations.

"Akala ko ba mahal mo'ko! Bakit hindi mo maiwan-iwan ang lintek na Andrado na iyan at ang mga anak mo sa kanya! Tangina...Raniela! Nawala lang ako pero may iba kana...
Ito lang hinihiling ko sayo para mag kasama na tayo, diba. Bumalik ako para sayo.....wag mong sayangin ang pagkakataong ito...sumama kana saken..."

"No! Hindi kita mahal...nung nawala ka! Si Andrado lang nandyan para sa'ken..I love him along the way while unlearning to love you, Edel!
Iniwan mo'ko tapos babalik ka! Wag mona akong guluhin...masaya na ako sa pamilya ko ngayon..." She sobbed her heart in front of that man.

I'm confused what their talking about...Daddy is in trial that's why we were left here with Mom...but unexpected person knock at our door.

Drie was in the playroom and I was to drink water when I heard Mommy and a man arguing on something...

I startled were I was when the man slammed the center table.

"Iyon ang gusto mo. Nakalimutan mo ba? Isa...isa lang, binigyan mo ako ng choice na umalis dahil sabi mo hihintayin mo'ko...tapos sasabihin mong mahal mo s'ya habang nasa malayo ako!...tatanggapin naman kita kahit mahal mong tanginang Andrado na iyan at mga anak mo. Basta sa'ken ang bagsak mo, Raniela. Kaya sundin mong sinasabi ko o ....Im sorry you leave me no choice...ako ang gagawa..." Humarap ito kung nasaan ako.

Nataranta ako ng lalabas ang lalaki pero huli na ang lahat at nakita na niya ako.

"Hindi! Wag mong gawin to!
Wag ang mga anak k-...A-rani!...anak..kanina kapa ba d'yan"

"Look who's here..is this your daughter? She look like you, huh?" Lalapit ito saken pero hinawakan ito ni Mommy.

"Maawa ka, Edel...wag ang anak ko...sasama na ako...please...gagawin ko na...utang na loob..." nakita kong ngumiti ang lalaki na parang hindi nagalit kanina.

"Good...buti't nagkakaintindihan tayo.." sa hindi malamang dahilan ay umiyak si Mommy.

I know there was wrong but I let Mom take me I dont know where...

"Mommy...si Andrie.."
I said.

"Anak...ikaw lang kasama ko..after this..I hope you know how much I love you...patawarin mo'ko.." she said while driving.

Hindi namin kasama ang lalaki o si Andrie..hindi ko alam kung ano ang nagyayari dahil walang tigil sa pag iyak si Mommy.

I nodded at her...