My Dark Poetry

Giving up

I'm slowly starting to give up

Letting this illness

Take a hold of me

And let it do as it please

I'm done with trying

With trying to be perfect

When I know

I will never achieve it.

I'm giving up

On hope of getting better

When I try to get better

I just end up back to the start

I can never get far enough

Until I completely fall apart.

Even as you ask me

And beg me

To eat

And I promise I will

But you know I won't

I've come too far

And everything is a mess now.

But I'm giving up on life

Because this existence of mine

Is meaningless

Who would want to spend
everyday

Feeling like you're not good enough

And will never be good enough

Or spend every waking moment

Worrying

Worrying if you look fat

Worrying if you ate too much

Worrying how many calories are in your food.

I'm giving up

Letting this illness

Take a hold of me

I know you're worried

But you don't need to be

Sooner or later

Ill be okay again

High above in the clouds

In the one place

I will no longer be imperfect.