My Dark Poetry

My Mask

Sometimes I wanna scream and shout,

And let all of this pain out,

The pain that rages deep inside,

The unspoken pain,

Deep down,

No one knows how I really feel,

All they see is the mask,

That I've built long ago,

My mask is always happy,

I always push people away,

Saying that 'I'm fine.'

But really all I want is for
someone to care,

I lie to my parents all the time now,

And I can't seem to turn it off,

My lies keep building up,

And I can't find a way out.

No one can see the clues,

The clues I give everyday,

The clues that I'm ready to give up,

On life,

That I don't eat anymore,

That I want to cut myself more,

I want to go puke in a toilet,

Every time I eat,

Just to lose some weight.

When they realize the truth,

I will be long gone,

Six feet underground.