hi

well .

I DONT THINK I NO LONGER WANT TO KMS .
ik i was just suicidal yesterday but im feeling so different today like omggg i met a new guy .
hes middle eastern. 🌚 a year younger than me 🌚🌚 but thats ok .

i dont like his name tho . idk why i always go for guys with unique names . like vince's real name is soooo pretty, my last hubby who absolutely tore my heart had a pretty unique name but ugh he just had to break my heart . 🫠 absolutely shredded it 😭 but now since i have new interests i feel like trying again. this week was really bummy it was hoodies, sweaters, and pjs all day long .

but im feeling better .
am i still depressed? yes?
will i try again ? yes , bc i can keep fighting 🤗
and plus i really dont want to hurt my family bc theyve been through a lot and losing another child is just terrible and i dont want any of them to through any pain so yeah