hi

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I miss him so so much.

I fell in love with this little boy , I HAVE NO CLUE WHY I CANT GET OVER HIM. I think i really did fall for him. He treated me like no man had ever done that one day we hung out. And i blame myself every night. I truly believe he actually had genuine feelings for me but then again I dont know i dont know. After i get to close with a guy i might potentially have a future with i get distant but with him, i didnt want to leave him i wanted to stay by his side because hes beautiful and we bonded really well and no man had ever been like that with me. But im just a joke to him and i cant get over him because I fell in love with him. I know i deserve better but i just cant. Im tired of seeing him everyday knowing he isnt thinking about me meanwhile i havent stopped thinking about him since monthsss. its not fair.
he went from being the boy from elite to being a boy who played me terribly but i cant get over .
and when i found out he had gotten w my ex bestfriend right after me it hurt so badly,
i had to watch the 2 people who've hurt me the most get together. He gave her everything i wanted from him which makes me think. I was nothing to him and he only talked to me bc it was an opportunity to talk to more girls. God he is a fallen angel. He's blindingly beautiful but i dont think he realizes what he does to girls.
I dont know what to do.
He got my mind off of Silvio.
SILVIO.
i did not think about that man everyday while talking to this boy. Thats very rare for a man to do. but neither of them want me and it hurts trying to accept it.
I fell in love with Jeronimo.
I want Silvio.
and then theres another guy. he plays around with my feelings without noticing but hes actually in love with another girl who treats him badly so me and him would lowkey be a mixture of good and bad bc its 2 ppl who fell in love with someone who didn't deserve them. but ive never loved a man the way i love jeronimo.
and he doesn't deserve my love but i cant idk i just dont know.
2/8/23