hi

2024 isa banger

so. New year , and i said i was gonna leave my ex in 2023 but well, i did not bc on the first day of the year i catfished him .
ANDDD i found out inwas right and he does say the same shi to everyyy single girl and then i feel like a dumbass again cs i opened up my heart and FELL IN LOVEEEE with fake words and shi but damn wtv still forever grateful for him🙏🏻
He said,
"Oh she was crazy.
Kaden was so sweet
Yo I swear
When she finds a real boyfriend that man will feel so happy
Trust me
She's so caring funny
Trust me bro."

UGHH like thank god, although we did each other dirty he's still an angel ofc i js can never get myself to hate him or anything but that gave me the closure i needed and the ability to let him go bc in November right before my birthday i almost took my life again and blocked him but yk yk i didnt, and then blew up his phone on 2 other phones and wtv wtv it js ended THENN i texted him on text now😭😭 and only took 3 texts for him to find out it was me and then he js gave me the little old talk about moving on and he doesnt love me and js yk humbling me ig and yea i was heart broken but i mean later that week i went out wit 2 guys so like yk 😂 ANYWAYS after that ( nov 25 )
December 13 i wake up and scroll on my notifications to see i got a message from DENNIS at 2:30 !! Like tf u doin anyways he js said "Heyyy" and now ofc my delusional ass gon turn up and think he want me back but i reliped and got NO ANSWER so i said OK dont text me next time, and i got a response, Huhh.
Girlll anyways.
it was a lil convo about my man and his girl and we both lied saying we didnt have one yet i kinda did .. but ntm on that but also he lied he said he lied about having a girl so i would leave him alone but i caught his ass lackin on that catfish acc and he said his last gf was a month ago BITCHH we been going at ts shit for 6 MONTHS . Anyways ye ye
Then he js was dry and boring so i was like WOWW doin ts shi again huh.
And well i told him straight up if u not gon be wit me get out my life dont text me for no BS unless its LETS TRY AGAIN OR LETS GET BACK TOGETHER OR COME HOME/CAN I COME HOME.
anyways he js said he was gonna block me so i was like OK we done done? GOODNIGHT and then the next morning i was bored and u cant see if ur blocked on text now so i texted and asked am i blocked and NO i was not bc he texted back saying Bro
But i told him i wasnt texting to be annoying and have him come back to me or any of that i was js accepting the way god let things be like yall ts relationship hurt me so bad I BECAME CLOSER TO GOD. Not a bad thing js a big impact anyways he didnt text me so i was like oh well wtv
2-3 weeks pass and its Christmas !!And i was bored af and felt like texting dennis my bbg so i did and wooohoooo i wasn't blocked, conversation was okay, i knew where it was leading tho but not gon say allat ANYWAYS i told my d1 manager Jayline about it and ofc she told me the truth and i knew that truth but i thought OK it doesnt matter like i like him in my life idc if he wanna be wit me or not but like gee how ever much i try and escape it ik i will always love him or js have that spot for him and it started to hurt again bc he would only act rlly sweet sometimes BUT LIKE WHEN HE NEEDED something so i started to feel a little sad again and then one day i had the funniest smartest brightest wildest idea, to, make my friend and my situationship/pookie wtva he is, play FORTNITE wit dennis, and i was there and it was like a big ft call except dennis didnt wanna join i js had to listen through my friends mic, and i started being a lil dumb wtv wtv then i found out he was telling me to shut up and calling me weird and well my heart hurt cs why was he acting so different wit his friends like ouuuu hunny les NOT say😭 but ye ye then my friend said he was talking about going on a 2 man and i was like WOW OK and ykw im done so i blocked him and when he found out he texted me and said "Blocked me again?😂"
LIKE OFC tf and i told him yes im not gonna hurt myself and u got a girl and LIEDDD again saying it wss a joke like YEAH OK anyways i told him like im not gonna hurt myself GOODBYE text me when u wanna act right or come home cs

Anyways wtv we left it like that i continued the catfish him so it would be fake but i js drifted away cs it wasnt healthy for me but yea and THEN ts week or last week ion know i noticed he unblocked me from instagram and i was like .. should i do it for the PLOT? And my manager jayline backed me up so , I DID, and i was js gonna keep him there as my bbg yk and then and then he slid up to my note and js said ummmm and i said uhhh and he said stfu and i said emp pussy and he said ohhh smd and bet ill munch on it, andd then i said im good and yea ok and he said mhm and i js left it like that cs I WAS STANDIN ON BINESSSSS and then ya ya next day, slides up on my note that says i miss summer and it had a love song on it IG IT WAS KINDAA BUT JS BARELY DIRECTED TO HIM but he said, me too and i hearted the message and said wrd winters ass and he said frrr and i hearted the message and that was it, THEN i posted myself 2 or 1 day later and nikka slid up saying
"Can we fuck"
LIKE JESUS and yk yk we was js messing around but i was being non chalant KINDA and wtv i unblocked him and wtv we was js chattin he said he missed me and i was js going along with his LIES and he complimented me wtv i didnt feel too much bc i rlly lost my trust in him, didnt lose love but trust, anyways wtv nun rlly happening but he asked for a pic and i didnt know what to respond wit bc i didnt want to so he js asked how my day was and i said "good" so DRY and then he js left me on OPENED like OH OK anyways i posted something wit situationship thing and he saw, like i didnt hide him bc i thought he wouldnt care but omg he did, he called me weird and he didnt care about the excuses i made and wtv and then he started CHATTIN sayin o i was gonna take u back but no ts and that like girlll oml bro idk wether to believe him or not i still feel bad either way

JANUARY 20 ^^^^

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FEBRUARY 15 ||||

OMG ! WOWW  so basically... me and dennis . for the first time, we've known each other for 7 months, and we wtv wtv it was ok but i js wasnt as comfortable wit dennis as i used to be like bro things had changed sm and honestly idk i js wasnt feeling it, i was mostly js thinking about how im more comfortable wit my 'situationship' (at the time) and yeaaa so basically me and dennis js spoke for a while but honestly i didnt care anymore, i didnt have crazy feelings and i wasnt delusional, so i didnt bother texting him everyyyday. and basically dennis didnt like that i wasnt a "freak" anymore or sum shi ion know, LMFAOOOO all i know is that i aint a hoe anymore, im a child of god and im loyal. SOOOO TO END IT OFF. i am over dennis barrera, finally. After 5 months of being delusional, and 7 months of our entire story, i'm done with it, me and him arent getting married, he isnt gon be my babydad, and i have much higher standards and know my worth and dennis is just a manipulator and liar , at least i have a new lesson to learn from and take some advice from.. LMFAOO . ANYWAYS.

I have a new boyfriend, my situationship, we have been talking since November 21 2023, and we have been dating since, February 14 2024. WE JS LOCKED IN YESTERDAYYYY bc i didnt wanna cheat on him so i needed time and i knew when he first asked me i was not completely over dennis and i told him ts all, but he still stuck around and tried so hard to make me rlly want a relationship , and auughhh like lets call him pisado , his name will be revealed eventually since he's the new star of the show, but pisado has treated me like a princess and done everything for me and thats what i need in my life, im actually serious about him and i met his family and honestly he gon meet my family soon and im super duper wooper scared bc i never done that and im only 14 and my dad gon bug out ngl and then he gon give me the TALK about boys and how they js wanna fuck around like girl ik.. i am a boy. LMFSOOO anyways no, like i know how things go , ive got enough lessons to not be so stupid like yk! ugh but ts really my man and im so happy and comfortable with him , and... HE'S A JUNIORRR aaaaaa finally got my dream of lockin in wit a junior bc , i love my juniors, silvio, alex, melvin, all juniors!! but my favorite, my pisado, duhhhh. anyways, older boys r always better!! and ouf thank the lord im done with dennis bc lord is he ugly. like respectfully but lorddddd that could have not been my baby dad.. anywaysyyssss wooohooooo im happy, but also omg not happy my brother was in the hospital all night yesterday bc of our dog omg my poor brother, anyways prayers to him!!!

BYEEEEE

February 15th 2024

9:56 am

- K.G.