hi

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yeah there is NO solution 😭 i feel so alone rn like and hurt but i dont even want to express those feelings like the only person i truly spoke to was my boyfriend ugh and i ruined everything idk why he couldn't have been straightforward and told me the truth abt how he felt like if i had known earlier i wouldn't overthink as much and wouldve changed earlier now its messed up he tried breaking up with me bc i have anger issues they're rlly bad but im also js so in love with him i have jealousy issues and im going to get rlly over protective and ugh i js dont know what to do im trying to change and calm down more i been more quiet i been trying my hardest its js been so weird and rough but i mean like relationships arent easy and im doing everything for him that i can i js still dont feel good enough but its fine wtv makes him feel like we can truly work it out and be together foreverrrr js how we planned and promised.
4/16

im so irritated and sickened by it i been trying to not be mad but i cant control it like i js wanna cry and shit but not even that i can do ts shit is so unfair and weird bro but wtv like wtf i hate overthinking like wtff and i dont wanna keep thinking abt it bc like imma manifest it to come true and i dont want to do that but ts is so unfair like wtf i love ts boy so much but idk bro like i js feel like hes doing all ts to make me feel easier or something but at the same time hes probably not bc hes a good boy but then i js remember his past and im no different to him than any other girl idk im js so irritated
i dont want to communicate bc then IM the one whos crying exaggerating and getting mad for no reason like its so weird and irritating
4/17/24