hi

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not to be corny. BUT. IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF. 🤗🤗🤗 last year the first few months of the beginning of the school year i was so miserable and wanted to end my life and i was so vulnerable i would do almost anything for attention, which when these 2 boys pretended like they wanted to be my friends i had no problem with it and i felt special, but it was all a joke bc i was the weirdo so they wanted to have their little fun moment. wtv. idc about any of that shit anymore, u play that shit with me again i honestly dont give one fuck, my world is not all about friends. bc when ur at your lowest no fucking friends are truly going to be there for u, only yourself, and well ur family bc they save ur life without knowing so even if they dont give u the "right comfort" they give u the attention u crave when others dont. that's honestly what saved me, my family. my dad is such a great person like i cant. i would have never made my goal if it werent for him. sometimes u need to be pushed, good luck comes with bad luck, if something bad happens there must be a good reason for it, i lost my "bestfriend" and i went through a hard time but my dad told me, there is not any real friends, my brother used to have a bunch of friends bc he had a nice car, his car broke down, his health got worse, guess who was there for him. most certainly not those "friends", only his family. even if he declines any help we will never stop being here for him, god hes such a pain in the ass but i will always forever forgive him no matter, i dont give 2 fucks i will love him forever bc although hes repeatedly made so many mistakes theres hope for anyone and he can make it i know he can. but i rlly love my dad hes pushed me to be the person i am today ive matured more bc of him and yeah. now social life. im proud of that. bc like i said i would be so excited js to have one person talk to me in school last yr bc i really had no friends like i mean none like literally id hate when i had lunch bc i js sat there and watched mfs who swore they'd always be my bestie ignoring me over childish shit , it was mad bad. i hate bitches who say they got no friends but literally hang out with mad bitches, like yeah right mf. but now i literally talk to so many kids, let me count, my closest friends are mariyam and max, it used to be all 3 mariyam max and julie but me and julie r still friends expect we dont have any classes together and say hi to each other anytime im waiting for max and merm. my other friends r damian ofc but i dont talk to him everyday and i dont have to for it to be a close friendship we're always gonna be like this 🤞🏼 no matter what, however many times he wants to act like a bitch boy and however many times i get over his shit, always will have that bond.

then theres josiah who ive been becoming rlly close with lately, hes a real fun kid.

Cesar, i dont talk to him everyday but it certainly is fun having him around sometimes, josiah and his friendship always has me giggling, ive known cesar wayyy too long but not longer than damian and i, or actually i dont even remember, but we've def known each other for at least 8 or 7 yrs now.

Ayden, honestly hes a good kid, i would refer to him as an aquatint, he would have small convos with me in 6th grade, small convos 7th grade, this yr is the most we've spoken since we're in the same class, he def acts flirty but it's honestly just boring it un phases me, hes not my type and ik he does not like me he likes kadens boobs 🤗 so idrc.

Will, hes an aquatint as well, def like him more than ayden bc hes funnier but its not like hes bestie material, hes a funny kid, its good to be on his goodside 🌚.

Jovan is a funny dude i only talk to when other friends like merm and max are around other than that we prob wouldnt be seen speaking alone unless we become closer.

and upcoming friendships ( i hope) have me rlly excited 🤗🤗 max's twin sister and her bsf talked to me last friday and i hope it can start a new friendship bc they think im rlly funny i made them laugh a lot so thats good news, its nice to have lots of friends but what's different is attaching yourself. im probably js rlly attached to merm max and damian and slowly josiah, i mean id be sad if he suddenly left me, but its ok bc theyve been really good friends so far but yk i will always keep family closer. another upcoming friendship i hope for is this girl devi. shes cool, shes so funny, and shes js cool. ik ive said that already but she rlly is, her and mariyam talk and im her partner in french and im always helping her so i hope we become closer over time 🤞🏼🤞🏼. but yeah thats life update recently its ok js gotta keep my anger controlled when it comes to stupid bitches like rosemary bc if i beat that ass lord knows how much shit can all crumble down.

kg 10/1/22
^^^ FIRST DAY OF OCTOBER IM FEELING SO MUCH NOSTALGIA LORD TIME GOES BY SO FAST WHEN U HAVE FUN.