Growing pains ( Sequel to Life changes )

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☆Chloe's point of view☆

It's been almost six weeks since Beca had the miscarriage and since then she has been avoiding me. She isn't sleeping at home, she keeps working in the studio and even stays over night. Emma told me that Beca destroyed her office in a temper tantrum and that she drank four bottles of whiskey in one week. I'm worrying about her. I'm used that Beca closes herself off, because that's who she is but I miss her. I understand more than anyone that she needs her own time to grieve and get past this, I've grieved on my own way too but right now Beca is acting like she is alone in this. I have been giving Beca space because I know that's what she needed, but she has shortening her time with Ryan and that's just not fair. He loves her as much as I do and he did nothing wrong.

That's why I'm on my way to the studio now. I need to talk to Beca about this and let her know she's not alone. I've brought Ryan over to Emily and Yelena's apartment. They're going to babysit Ryan while I talk to Beca. It doesn't take long for me to reach the company because our apartment isn't that far. I walk inside and greet Serena before going straight to Beca's office. I take a small peak through the window and see her working, a pen stuck between her fingers. I take a deep breath before knocking on the door.

☆Beca's point of view☆

I'm working on the track and it's going really well until I hear a knock on my door, causing me to lose my focus. Raising my eyebrows, I look at the clock and see that it's 8 pm. I don't have an appointment, so I'm curious who is knocking right now. I don't feel like getting up, so I just yell for them to come in. I can hear the door open, but I'm too busy to look up.

,,I don't have much time, so what do you need?" I say, thinking it's Sutton again to tell me to hurry with the mashup. I hear a heavy sigh and that makes me look up. Chloe is standing in the doorway, looking nervous. I just stare at her, neither of us knowing what to say. She still looks as beautiful as ever. I can feel tears starting to well up in my eyes but I refuse to let them fall right now. I see that Chloe's eyes are glassy too. I know why she's here.

,,If I didn't come here myself, would you have remembered to come home?" She asks me and it kills me to see her sad, but I can't help it. If something bad happens to me, I shut everyone out. It's just what I'm used to and how I protect myself.

,,It's just - this record needs a lot more work. You know that."

,,You can't keep throwing yourself into work, Beca." I look down at my work, trying to hold back the tears. ,,It happened to both of us, okay?"

,,Can we - can we not talk about this right now?" I can see Chloe nod and turn around. I turn my attention back to the mashup I'm making, thinking Chloe will walk away, but that's not what happens.

,,Beca, I have given you plenty of time. I'm sorry, but I can't keep up with this anymore." I look at her startled.

,,What are you saying? That you don't want to live together anymore?" I completely understand if you don't want that anymore, Chlo. Losing Grace is the worst thing I could do to you.

,,That's not what I'm saying. Ryan misses you, Becs. We both miss you, so I came here to take you home. I love you so much and I want to be here for you, but you're pushing me away." I look down now and avoid looking at Chloe because I know I will break if I try talking again. Chloe walks over to my desk and pulls my chair away from my desk, to sit on my lap. She wraps her arms around my neck and just pulls me in for a hug. ,,Beca, I'm here for you through everything. I'm not going to leave you, but I can't be there for you if you push me away." At hearing those words I break and put my arms around Chloe's waist, while crying into her chest.