Bud

Chapter 31

I lean on Sirius tiredly as we sat on the train. I had told Lily i was staying with James and Sirius for Christmas Holiday. She wasn't happy and did try to get a reason out of me but I just told her I wanted to spend Christmas with Sirius. Sirius already knew why I didn't want to go home for Christmas and why I wasn't telling Lily

"I'm ready for you to tell me why your so bloody tired," Sirius grumbles at me

"I'm sorry ok?" I lift my head and look at him a little annoyed, "I didn't mean to fall asleep during sex but you were determined to finish me before you did. Being exhausted and cumming means sleep right after. I am sorry"

"Ok, I did not need to know that," Lily says with a frown from next to James

"Well, he's been upset about it for 3 days now," I sit up straight and cross my arms, "You know what, no"

I get up and push between James and Lily before leaning my head on her shoulder, "Sirius wants to keep at it then fine ill just sleep on my twin's shoulder"

Lily giggles and I could only guess James was frowning at Sirius by the way Sirius threw his hands up at James.

"Don't worry, he wont be this tired any more after a good night sleep," Lily tells Sirius with a grin on her face

I finally told her why I was so tired and she found it very sweet. I looked over at Remus who also looked real tired and worn out. I forgot the full moon was last night. He must be struggling today

I watch him for a moment before smiling softly, "There will one day be a potion"

He looks to me clearly confused but by my smile and the fact I didn't specify what I meant, seeing as Lily doesn't know yet, he seemed to get it. I could see hope in his eyes but I think I should explain

"Don't fix it or remove it but you will keep your true self"

"What are you talking about?" Lily asks clearly not liking to be left out of the loop

"You will find out in a few years don't worry"

"So, wait," Sirius speaks up again as James moves to sit between Remus and Sirius now, "Have you looked into the future again?"

"No," I pause for a moment before looking to Remus, "I just.....I didn't want to tell you 2 years ago and I don't know when the potion will be created and I don't know how to make it as of now but I will learn"

"Thank you," Remus says with a small smile

"I have also neglected to tell you you will have a child as well," his smile falls and he stiffens while looking panicked, "Dont worry, the child doesnt have your problem, but the child will get there mother's problem"

"Whats that supposed to mean?" James asks with a frown

I smile as i shake my head, "Its nothing dangerous, distracting a bit yet but not dangerous"

They look between eahc other confused and curious but instead of answering anymore questions i coose my eyes and relax. I was planning to sleep a bit before we got off the train

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I walked off the train and paused as i saw Lily go over to our parents. Our mum hugged her and smiled brightly while my father looked around before his eyes stopped on me. He had a blank look on his face as he waited.

"Come on love," Sirius whispers as he puts his arm over my shoulder and pulls me away

I saw disgusting come to mg father's face as he sees Sirius put his arm over my shoulder

Once we got to Fleamont and Euphemia, Euphemia beamed as she saw Sirius and i

"Glad you could join us Bud"

"Thank you for allowing me to stay with you"

"Come along lets get home. You lot get to decorate the Christmas. Maybe, Bud, you could tell us about the muggle tradition for Christmas"

"Sure, but i think you might find it odd"

We all leave but as we do i glance back and see Lily talking with our parents. I felt bad for not spending Christmas but i didnt want to tell her why i wasnt staying

"I heard what he said," i turn to James who spoke in a lowered voice, "He shouldnt have done or said what he did but im glad you didnt want Lily to be angry with her parents. She would have sided with you in a heart beat"

"I know," i smile at him, "I got lucky with a twin like her and you are very lucky to be with her"

He nods in agreement and once we get outside we all pile into a car with Fleamont driving.

Once we got home we pulled our trunks inside but left them near the door and the 3 of us, James, Sirius, and i all got busy decorating the Christmas tree.

"James!" I held up an ornament with a picture of a young James, "You were adorable, what happened?"

James shakes his head at me while Sirius laughs, "Ive been asking that for years"

"Whats my son look like? Or will look like?" James asks a bit hesitant on the wording

"Im leaving that as a surprise," i smiles at him, "But i will say he is very clever. Growing up with you and Lily he will defently get into trouble and keep the mischief going"

James' smile slowly fades, "How bad is it? If Lily and i die? If Sirius is arrested for our death and locked away?"

I sigh softly before going over to the closet under the stairs and open the door to find storage in it, "This will be his room for 11 years till he gets his Hogwarts letter because Dumbledore knows he is living here and put this as the address. Only then is he moved into a real bedroom. He gets stared every summer. One year bars get put onto his window to keep him prisoner and his door kept lock with several locks keeping him trapped. His life only gets better during Hogwarts, for thd most part, and after Sirius escapes and your son tells Petunia and her husband that his godfather, who was arrested for murder, was free and would be checking on him from time to time"

Sirius grins, "Well at least being arrested came in handy for him even if i couldnt raise him"

I look between James and Sirius, "Wen wd get back to school im going to try and look again. We also need to come up with a plan to end Tom before you and Lily die"

"We will"