Bud

Chapter 45

I looked around at the others. We were all sitting in mine and Sirius' room. I had the crystal in my lap. I wanted to see if anything changed since telling Sirius and the others. I didn't tell them what day it happened on, all i told them was 2 years.

"You can wait if you want. You don't have to do this now," Sirius tells me as he watches me worriedly

"I'll be ok. I want to do this before we leave for training"

He gives me a nod and relaxes a bit. I take a breath and look down at the ball. I watched it for several moments before lifting it up higher and watching it carefully. I could feel Sirius put his hand on my back. He must be worrying more then i could see

I couldn't think about it long before clouds appear. I watched as i was kiddnapped, Sirius left right before it happened just like every other time. This time, however, i don't see where I'm taken, instead i watch Sirius as he handles my kidnapping. He doesn't handle it well. He and Remus start fighting and Sirius throws Remus' werewolf problem out there and accuses him of being the cause of me being kiddnapped. He ends up torturing Peter to the point of almost killing him.

This time Severus returns my children to the others. Sirius tried to kill or hurt him but Lily and James stop him. Again my 2nd born is dead and again Lily and James had to hide the fact i was even pregnant with twins.

It changes again showing Sirius fighting Death Eaters and raising our daughter. Then Harry is born. Tom comes and kills James and Lily. This time Sirius goes to Peter and kills him. However Peter killed the muggles first. I watch as he is,thrown into Azkaban, no one listening as he pleads his innocence.

I watch as Dumbledore takes my child and long with Harry to Petunia's house. Petunia takes both children in. The only good side to this is Harry isn't alone in his suffering. My daughter even tries to take more punishments then Harry takes. She also has to deal with Dudley trying to push himself onto her. She also gets into Hogwarts before Harry.

When Sirius brakes out i watch as he gets to the school. He was unable to get into Ravenclaw's dormitory however our daughter takes walks at night. Sirius watches her in his dog form. I could see all his emotions in his eyes as he watched her from afar.

Harry saves Sirius from the Death Eaters and our daughter helps him escape. He writes to her everyday,that he can and she him. Once she turns 17 she moves in with him after Harry told her to. Then i see it. I see Sirius die. He gets hit with a spell and his body falls into the veil.

My eyes snap open and i quickly toss the crystal ball to James, who struggled to catch it. Once i realize i am in fact back in the present and no longer looking at the future i couldn't help but turn to Sirius and whack him repeatedly over the head

"Ow! Ow! Ow! Oi! Stop it! What did i do?!" He jumps up and moves out of my arms reach while Lily came to my side quickly

"Bud, what happened?"

I kept my eyes on Sirius, "You had your hand on me. I didn't see my future, i saw yours"

"And what earned me getting beat??"

"I still got kidnapped and you still got our daughter. James and Lily still die and you are the bloody idiot who went after Peter when Hagrid came for Harry. Peter knew you were coming. He killed the muggles but you identically killed him! You got arrested before they got to Peter. You thought he was still alive. You tried and failed to plead your innocence. Our daughter and Harry grow up with Petunia! Our daughter and Harry grow up with no parent or parent figure because you got blinded by rage! You bloody idiot!!"

"Well don't get kiddnapped and that won't happen!"

"Bud come on," Lily pleads as she keeps me from standing and making me look to her, "When do you get kiddnapped?"

I watch her for several moments before sighing, "September 12th, 1978, the day James' parents die"

That made everyone do silent and stiff. I slowly turn and look at James then Sirius. Both of them looked shock. I could tell neither one of them ever thought about there parents dying, well I'm sure Sirius imagined his parents dying in a terrible way.

"How do they die?" James asks quickly

"Dragon pox"

"A natural death," Sirius mutters making me look to him

"It wasn't there death that made me ask you that. I didn't know about there till after mine"

"What?"

I look to Lily, "Same day James' parents die so does ours. You don't find out till a week later"

"H-how do......"

"Dad has a heart attack and that night mom goes to sleep and never wakes up," i watch as tears fill her eyes and she starts to break

No one ever images there parents dying, unless you hate them like Sirius, so no one thinks about it. I had the misfortune of watching it, well hearing about it really. So I'm not surprised they are reacting like this

"Ok, we can stop it," James says quickly, "We make your dad go to the hospital that day and he is saved and i keep my parents from going wherever they get Dragon Poxs"

"James," i say in a weak voice, "I don't know where they got it but there death, as our parents, are all natural deaths. Seers can't save too many lives. Death gets mad and takes away a seer, weather it be there abilities or there life"

"What?" Sirius moves closer to me

"We've researched seers," Lily says with tear filled eyes, "Every seer who has saved many lives have ended up dead, unable to see the future anymore, or end up how Bud was when hd forced a vision. Bud has to be careful who he purposely saves"

"But there our parents! Sirius, you agree don't you?"

I stand up before Sirius could even try to answer, "I'm not stopping there deaths. They lived full lives James. They had kids and got to see there kids grow up. And don't put Sirius in that position to choose between me and your parents"

"You can't just not save them!" James now shouts

"James," Lily stands up to comfort him but hes not having it

"No!" He leaves the room quickly

"I'll go-"

This time Sirius cuts off Lily, "No, let me," he then looks to me and leans my head down a little to kiss the top of my head then leaves the room

"He will come around," Remus says after a moment of silence, "For the record please don't tell me when my father dies"

I smile a bit and nod, "Ok, i won't. Just make sure you see and talk to him as much as you can. To be honest i haven't seen or heard of his death"