Abusive Love

52. The Other Woman

I didn't realize I had fallen asleep in Mari's nursery until I woke to Jay carrying me back to our bed. I wanted to pull away but I knew it would only cause trouble. I just have to get my act together and stop upsetting him.

"I know you're awake, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have blown up like that, I've just been worried you're gonna try and leave again with my son."

I didn't respond, I hadn't been thinking of leaving again, I won't need to as long as I learn to shut up sometimes. Jay sighed and put me in our bed. I turned away from him and tried to lie on the very edge.

"Come on Simone, don't act like that you know I didn't mean it, you just always have to push shit."

"You go out all the time, and I never ask you where you are, but you won't even think of letting me have friends," I whispered cause I didn't want him to think I had an attitude.

"I'll think about, just come here."

I didn't want to, but I already took one beating tonight. I inched closer, but I still kept my back turned. If I looked into his eyes I would hate him. Maybe I already do. Why can't he just believe I don't need to be locked up and controlled to love him. What if he hits me in front of Mari? What if Mari turns out like him? I know it would be better if I just left, but he would find me again anyway. It's so hard to just walk away because I know how gentle he can be. I wish he was still gentle.

A few hours later

I woke up to Mari crying. Jay was still asleep, so I groggily got out of bed to check on him. After I fed him, I brought him back to the bed with us cause I couldn't go back to sleep. He started to fuss again, so I took him downstairs before he woke Jay up. I turned on the tv and started to watch some New Girl before I heard someone banging on the door. I looked at the camera, and it was a girl that looked a little bit older than me. I was hecka confused, I didn't know who she was, but she looked super mad.

"Uh who are you?" I said through the camera.

"Who the fuck are you," She yelled.

"This is my house, so why the fuck are you banging on my door," I said getting irritated.

"So you're the bitch Jay's been seeing, I knew there was someone else," She said.

My heart dropped, so that's why he's been so relaxed he's been fucking someone else. I couldn't believe it, he had cheated on me before, but that's cause I ran away and he was trying to hurt me. I thought it was just some twisted punishment, but he never stopped. I guess that shows how fucked my mind has become after being with Jay, he's cheated infant of me and I still didn't leave, but I wanted to believe it was a one time thing. I mean I just gave birth to our son, and he's fucking other people while I'm locked up in this house?

I opened the door with Mari in my arms, I needed to speak to her and find out what the hell is going on.

"I'm Jay's wife," I said as tears started to fill my eyes.

I felt so weak crying over a man who's done nothing but heart, but he's all I've ever known.

"His wife? Is he here," she said in a confused and angry tone, she was so upset she didn't even acknowledge my bruises.

I signaled for her to come upstairs with me and led her to where Jay was still sleeping peacefully. Almost immediately, she punched him in the jaw. I acted shocked, but deep down, I was happy he was getting what he deserved. Jay got up, and he had that look in his eyes, but she was so angry she didn't seem to notice. I began to back out of the room with Mari because I knew what was about to happen. I shouldn't have opened the door and put her in this situation. 

He quickly knocked her out and started to come towards me, but I ran downstairs. Of course, this is somehow my fault. I grabbed some car keys and started for the door, but Jay got there first. I was still holding Mari, who was awake at this point, and I was shaking.

"You cheated on me again? I said through tears.

"Why'd you let her in the house?" he asked ignoring what I said.

"You act like you want me here, but it's like you want me to hate you," I yelled.

Jay began to come closer to me until I was cornered in the living room.

"So you hate me now? Maybe if you weren't so fucking dumb, I wouldn't have to hurt you." He said, and I could tell he was about to lose it.

I didn't say anything and just looked at Mari. How could something so beautiful be born from a relationship like this?

"Put him down," Jay said in a low voice.

I shook my head, if I put him down, he would hit me. I felt pathetic hiding behind a baby.

"Are fucking deaf? I said put him the fuck down!" He yelled causing Mari to cry.

I tried to soothe him, but I couldn't. He knew I was upset. I slowly walked to the crib we had for him downstairs and placed him in. I smiled down at him, trying to convince him it was going to be fine, but we both knew it was a lie. I slowly began to turn around, but before I could even face Jay, he hit me. I fell down, and he got on top of me and just kept punching me. I tried to cover my face, but it was no use. I felt like I was underwater. I couldn't breathe or move. I heard Mari crying, but it was muffled. It wasn't real. It couldn't be. It's just a bad dream. Jay would never hurt me like this in front of our child. I was good, wasn't I? I didn't do anything wrong, so why was he still hurting me? That was my last thought before my vision faded to black...

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