Abusive Love

11. Forgiveness

As soon as I opened the door Jay pulled me into a hug. I was still shaking and wanted to get away from him, but couldn't. We stayed like this for a while, but my muscles never relaxed. I continued to just look at his chest with my arms at my sides until he pulled away with a disappointed look on his face. I glanced at his face, but then I looked back down still shaking. I was scared of him.

"Look at me," he said.

I kept my head down, and I heard him mumble something before grabbing my chin forcing me to look up. 

"I said look up, I don't want to hurt you," he said in a soft tone.

"Is your nose broken," he asked while reaching to touch my face. 

I flinched away and nodded my head causing him to frown.

"I'm sorry, I just lost my temper," he said, "I thought you were gonna leave me, I should have never brought that bitch over."

I still didn't say anything and he sighed before sitting down on my bed. I continued to stand there until he patted the spot next to him while looking at me. I hesitated but decided it would be best if I just listened to him. 

"Please say something, I'm sorry," he said in a desperate tone.

I was scared, but I still loved him. I couldn't be mad at him forever even though he hurt me. 

"I forgive you, just please don't do it again or I'll actually leave," I whispered.

I saw a smile appear on his face, and I realized he just made a mistake. He loved me, I knew it. He pulled me into a hug and I enjoyed every second of it. Once he pulled away, he looked at my nose again.

"It doesn't look super bad, so I'm just gonna give you some pain meds and ice," he said.

I nodded my head and smiled as he walked downstairs to get the ice. Once Jay came back he gave me the ice and sat back down. I slowly applied it to my nose, but still winced when it touched my skin. Jay began to rub my back, but I moved away. He moved closer and tried rubbing my back again, but this time I stood up and moved away.

"I already apologized, why are you flinching?" he asked in an annoyed tone.

"I have scratches and bruises on my back," I said while looking down.

"Oh," was all he said.

I sat back down, but he was on his phone texting. I didn't say anything and just kept my head down.

"Take off your clothes," he said.

I stopped breathing and began hyperventilating.

"I don't mean like that, I'm just gonna clean your wounds," he said.

I calmed down and slowly took off my shirt. I had my back facing him so I couldn't see his face, but I imagine it was one of shock. I felt a cold substance on my back and immediately jerked away, but after a few seconds, I went back to my original position.

After she's cleaned up (That's boring so I'm not gonna elaborate)

After all my wounds were wrapped up Jay laid with me. I didn't want to talk about last night because I was afraid he would get mad and hurt me again, but I knew he loved me. 

I felt myself drift away, but before I lost consciousness I heard Jay's voice say," You should have never gone to the park."

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