LEFT BEHIND | Scarlett Johansson x Daughter.

CHAPTER 1 - SCREWED*

Life was weird for a 14 year old going through what felt like everything at once. School was a constant stress, keeping up with friends, family? Well that was the hardest for me.

Family was never a subject I was ever 100% comfortable speaking about. The majority of my friends didn't even know what my moms name was let alone what she did for a living, hell they didn't even know what she looked like. I had no pictures of her in my room, no pictures of me and her since I was probably about 11, I think most people just thought I didn't have a mom. While sometimes it was easy pretending she didn't exist at the same time it was hard, not like she made it seem difficult herself.

My mom and dad, Scarlett Johansson and Liam Jacobs, met when they were young, they went to the same high school together and were in the same friend group. They started dating when they were 17, married when they were 19 or 20 I can never remember and then had me on February 14th 2005 when they were 20. Valentine's babies are nice right? Not.

Guess it was nice while it lasted until they ended up divorcing in 2011. It was a weird time for a 6 year old. 'Oh dad, where's mom going?' 'oh just moving out cos we aren't together anymore but don't worry we still love you' well I call bullshit on that.

Never mind them both sending me to boarding school when they both couldn't come up with an agreement on where I would be staying as dads work finally started to pick up and he was traveling the world. I remember begging him to let me go with him, begging to go to all these new places he got to go and be on a constant adventure but he didn't want that for me which sucks. So they sent me to boarding school, it's alright I guess. I call my dad whenever I want, if he is back home he comes and gets me on Friday nights, takes me home for the weekend and then I'm back off to boarding school. It's bittersweet but that's my life, not like I have a say, it's boarding school or Scarlett and well I pick boarding school.

I'll never understand what I ever did to give my own mother reasons to just kind of abandon me, well some people might not say abandoned but it sure felt it when you hadn't seen your daughter in 2 years while she had another baby and got remarried. Dad would always try to still justify her actions no matter how much it frustrated me that he still stuck up for her, she is a grown woman who makes her own choices, yeah bad choices but he shouldn't have to defend her but he still did. 'Dad, am I going moms this holiday or staying with you?' 'sorry JJ she is real busy at the moment with work and she said she is sorry but next time 1000% you'll be with her' well that was 2 years ago and I have seen her twice, which in both of them times she had to send me back to my dads because she got her dates mixed up with work but you know, no big deal right? No big deal while my younger half sister still got to go wherever she went.

But anyway, my brain feels like it's on fire right now. 

I'm at school, it's a Saturday, I was seeing my dad tomorrow when he would be coming to see me and take me out so we could say goodbye. He is leaving for work in Australia for 6 months. BUT I'm chilling with my friends as we managed to sneak off campus. 

Sometimes you have to be rebellious. Not the first time anyway.

One of my friends, Nathan, has an older brother, Daniel, who goes to our school. He is 17 and they're allowed off campus without supervision on weekends. He told Nathan about a party not far from school that they were going too so that's where we have snuck off too. 

Me, Nathan, Holly, Charlie and Billy are sitting in the garden of this massive house party, red solo cups filled with god knows what in as we pass around a joint. Some people probably think jesus these kids are 14 doing all this? Yeah well that's what happens when you end up in a boarding school with other messed up kids.

Me and my friends know we come from 'wealth' that's why we are here, no normal kid would be at a place like this, not with how much it costs to even come to this school. 

But we all also know we are all pretty messed up, they know I have 'mommy issues' and well the list can probably go on and they're just like me too. 

Just a bunch of messed up kids because of our industry parents now that's fun.

We all talk about our week, Holly laying with her head in my lap as I run my fingers through her hair as she lights up another joint. Never have we been so thankful for Daniel giving us his weed for the night. 

The buzz I get from Holly putting the joint to my lips feels amazing, it feels like an utter body experience. My brain seems to just let everything go as I take a deep breath and forget about all the troubles I feel inside. 

I can't help but to think what I would do again if I couldn't smoke weed as an outlet. It's as though when it gets too much I can still feel the reminders of my dark moments on my thighs and if I close my eyes for too long I'll remember the blinding sights of the hospital room. 

Im brought out of my thoughts by Hollys phone starts ringing out of nowhere as we all start to feel the buzz from the alcohol and drugs starting to settle into our systems. Our phones all sat on the floor in front of us all starting to follow Hollys as our parents' names fill the screens and it's at that moment we all realise.

"Fuck, we are screwed"