LEFT BEHIND | Scarlett Johansson x Daughter.

CHAPTER 46 - KEEP RUNNING.*

Scarletts POV

The past 72 hours have been a massive blur. 

I haven't left Y/n's side at all, only to go to the bathroom but that is it. 

Seeing her on the floor, seeing her stop breathing. Watching her in the ambulance. Just everything. 

Y/n has been in and out of sleep since she finally woke up. She has been extremely groggy and confused. 

Which makes sense with what has happened. She hasn't been awake long enough to tell answer any questions. 

The doctors have said she overdosed...

And it's weird because sure that was going through my head when I saw her too, but every part of me doesn't believe that. She wouldn't. She promised. 

But if that is the truth. Everything changes all over again. And I don't know how much change my girl can take. 

I was meant to be there for her, making sure she was okay but I wasn't. I've been so in my own head and problems I have completely forgotten about her problems. I'm to blame again. 

It is all my fault, everything always has been. 

I feel guilty. Everything inside of me hurts from guilt. None of this was meant to happen but it has and it all stems from the moment I let Liam win. The moment I gave up fighting. Maybe I will always be guilty, I will forever hold the guilt of everything that has happened to JJ be my fault. 

Or maybe I was right all them years ago...Maybe she was better off without me all along and her coming back and having stayed with me has only proved that. 

She deserves more. God I am so stupid. Everyone is so much better off without me in their lives, it's like I destroy everything good that has ever come into contact with me. 

But the reality is I'm here and they are all too. That I chose this life. They chose me. And I have todo everything in my power to not destroy everything, to ruin everything. Maybe I'm too far gone on destroying myself, but not them, maybe I still have time to change everything...

"Mama..." Y/n's sobbing voice takes me away from my faults. My head turning around and zoning in on her face. Tears streaming down her face, her arms out inviting me into her embrace. 

I get onto her bed and pull her head into my chest where she continues to sob. I don't tell her to calm down, she needs to get out whatever is wrong. 

"What happened? Why am I in hospital?" Is muffled against my chest, before I can answer a doctor is walking into the room and takes a seat on the chair next to JJ's bed. 

"It's nice to see you awake Y/n, I'm Dr Lorenzo, how are you feeling?" He asks her softly. 

"I...I don't feel well." JJ sobs again, my heart breaking as her hold on me becomes even stronger. 

"I know darling, but we are doing everything we can to make sure you feel better soon. I have Louise outside if it's okay for her to come in?" I feel JJ shift off of me, confusion filling her face over his question. She grabs my hand and turns to me with her eyebrow raised. I nod my head to her to let her know it is okay. She faces Dr Lorenzo and mutters a small sure. 

He lets Louise into the room and she takes a seat next to him, while sending me and JJ a sad smile. "Hey JJ." 

"Can someone please tell me whats going on?" JJ sobs again, her grip on my hand loosening as she pulls her knees to her chest and closes in on herself. 

"Well Y/n, it seems that 3 days ago, an ambulance was called to your home as you fell unconscious. You were then not responsive and stopped breathing, upon further treatment and test. We came to the conclusion of your overdosing." Dr Lorenzo finishes. I watch as JJ's eyes go wide, her mouth falling opening, shock written all over her face.