LEFT BEHIND | Scarlett Johansson x Daughter.

CHAPTER 62 - the moon song.

Scarletts POV

Finally having JJ home feels so good.

The comfort in her being asleep in her own room.

Being home.

Just everything feels like it is finally looking up.

She seems so good, so positive.

But most importantly healthy.

Her face isn't pale, her eyes don't look sunken in. She looks brand new.

I'm incredibly proud of her. I'm proud of her journey. I'm just in awe of her recovery.

I know we are still going to have some bad days, of course we are but throughout JJ's own journey I have been going through my own.

I've dealt with a lot of guilt since JJ's overdose. I have hated myself a lot over the past few months.

How can a mother not realise something is wrong? She was so good at hiding everything. That's what Lisa and Louise have both helped a lot with. JJ has always struggled with substance abuse. She had mastered how to hide that part of herself away.

But I have also worked on myself, by myself and also alongside JJ during our family therapy. I'm feeling positive.

Tonight is the first night I have been able to get into bed and be comfortable. Knowing JJ is right down the hall. Knowing she is healthy, knowing she is okay and home.

And that's where my night leads me. To fall asleep comfortably in my husband's arms for the first time in months, knowing everyone is where they're meant to be.

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I wake up the next morning feeling a weight on my chest. My eyes opening and being met with Rose's body laying completely on top of my own. My arms surrounding her to move her in between me and Colin so I can get up.

I make sure I'm quiet to not disturb them but end up tripping over something on the floor. Causing everyone in the room to suddenly wake up.

I look behind me, JJ's confused face scrunching up as she sits up on the floor.

"What are you doing on the floor bug?" I whisper as I crawl over to her and bring her into my arms, just sensing that she needs some comfort. I realise I'm right when she snuggles her face into my neck and her arms grip around my waist. But she doesn't answer my question, only simply holds me tighter and huffs into my neck.

I stay on the floor with her, Colin looking over concerned. I shake my head at him and he picks Rose up and mutters that they'll be downstairs making breakfast. Allowing me to have some time with JJ.

"Let's get in the bed." I go to pull away but somehow her arms go tighter, only giving me one more option in trying to lift her to get her on the bed myself. I don't know how long she has been on the floor for, she didn't have a blanket or a pillow. She must have been so uncomfortable. I don't know why she didn't just get into the bed with us.

I lay us down in the bed, JJ laying between my open legs while she rests her head on my upper chest. Her hand came up to play with my hair. It reminds me of when she was a baby, whenever she wasn't well she would lay on my chest and play with my hair with her little hands. Being in the same position only makes me feel emotional.

"You okay bug?" I whisper, running my own hand through her hair.

"Had a nightmare." She mutters as she moves further up my body to rest her face back into my neck.

"Why didn't you wake me?" I pull her even closer, just needing to feel her breathing to bring me my own comfort.

"Didn't want to be a bother..." My heart breaks. She isn't a bother, she never has been but I understand why she might feel like that. But it isn't true.