LEFT BEHIND | Scarlett Johansson x Daughter.

CHAPTER 25 - LOST. *

"So, Y/n, why don't you ask Scarlett what you want to know?"

God I am not looking forward to this.  

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"I-I want to know why you left..." I stare into Scarlett's eyes as I watch her own gaze over. She shifts uncomfortably for a moment until she is fully turned towards me. Her hand reaches for my own but I feel myself shuffling further away from her on the couch. 

I know she only means well but this conversation is going to hurt and I don't want her comfort right now. I need my own. 

More sadness fills her eyes as she takes a deep breath. 

"It was always going to be a difficult situation when me and your dad separated." She finally speaks. It isn't even like I care that they got a divorce, I care about the fact she just abandoned me. 

"Leaving you and your dad was one of the hardest things I have ever done." 

"It didn't feel it." I spit back, I need to control my anger, I don't want to argue. I want to talk it out. I don't want this lingering hatred towards her anymore. 

"Y/n, what did we just speak about before Scarlett came in? You said you wanted to talk, don't give yourself a reason to start being angry. We can and will find other ways for you to work through your emotions, okay?" Louise speaks up as she moves to rest her elbows onto her knees. Her notepad now being careless thrown to the floor. 

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to be spiteful." I nod towards mom as her eyes soften.

"It is hard to try and explain what happened and why it happened but I will try too... The reason I was the one to have moved out was because it made the most sense for me rather than your dad. I was still working and could be gone for months at a time so when me and Liam finally decided to file for divorce it made sense, I still lived at home for a while even once we was divorced, I didn't want to leave but it was getting harder and harder for me and your dad to live together when we was both in pain. I threw myself into work, I should have thrown myself into you. I know it isn't a good reason but that's how it was." I feel myself nodding along to moms words as she tries to explain herself to me. I understand why it happened when they first broke up, but it doesn't explain when she met Colin and had Rose.

"I get that, I do. But Rose had such a different mom to what I did...Yeah sure you're still you and acting but she actually got to see that life. I didn't, and you still constantly left me out of your new life when you made it. That is more of the thing that hurts, like I've said to you before none of my friends knew who you were, they didn't think I even had a mom. Every time I reached out I was ignored, I wish you knew how damaging that was and still is." I try to keep my voice calm and I want to get my view across, I want her to know that what she did hurt me. I watch as she leans to the table and takes a tissue and lightly wipes her eyes. 

"Yes Rose was different, I don't mean that in a horrible way Y/n. Colin is in the public eye, even more so when we got together. Rose was brought into that world because no matter what parent she was with she was going to be seen. Your dad didn't want that for you, you know that, we have spoken briefly about that before, you think no one knew about you but that isn't true. I always spoke about you on whatever set I was working on, people knew I had another daughter, I just knew how to keep it out of the media, my team knew how." Mom takes a deep breath as she tries to work out what else she wants to say. 

I don't know how to feel, I get it, of course I do but that doesn't mean I can't still be hurt by her actions. I knew dad never wanted me in the spotlight, he wanted me to still have a normal life but it was never going to be normal. They sent me to a boarding school full of rich, stuck up kids. I wasn't like them, I wasn't a spoiled child. If I wanted something I had to earn it, I wasn't just handed it because they had the money for it. How did they expect me to be 'normal' yet send me somewhere like they did?