LEFT BEHIND | Scarlett Johansson x Daughter.

CHAPTER 2 - WHY?

I can see my dad through the window as he stepped out of his car in the parking lot. My 2 suitcases next to me backed up with my current life that seems to have come to an end at this school. I'm still surprised we got caught, our dorm rooms are checked once in a blue moon, mainly when someone snitches on people having left campus without supervision or permission.

 I can tell my dads pissed, the way his face is scrunched up as he talks into his phone puts me on edge. But I know I can easily get away with this, I can do online school while I travel with him, kind of perfect. It's what I wanted in the first place. I'm his only child, I'm his little sweet innocent princess, I'll be fine.

 WRONG, it is not fine.

Not with the way my dad is trying his hardest to not scream his head off at me as he listens to my principle, well former principal, about what happened and how they have already let me slide with so much and having this been my third strike it is 'unfortunate that they can no longer allow me to attend this school'

The silence on the way to the car is actually scary. I don't think ive ever seen my dad this mad before, well at me anyway. This is probably the worst thing I have ever done, drinking and drugs at 14 yeah of course it's the worst thing idiot. 

"Get in the car, now." he doesn't even bother looking at me. He just opens his own door instead and slides in as he slams the door closed again. Once I've got in I have to fight whether I should look at him or keep my head straight but my body rejects that idea as I swivel my head to slowly look at him. His head is in his hands and he releases a massive sigh as he looks up and turns the car on, pulling out of the parking lot even still without saying a word.

"Dad, I'm really sorry.'' I honestly don't even know how my voice sounds, I guess I've never had to feel this guilty before, I guess that's somewhat of a plus being his only child. I watch as his face tries to calm but before I know it he has turned bright red as he grinds his teeth realising a breath as his words come spilling out of him.

"I know okay? I do, BUT, that doesn't mean your behaviour was acceptable. You're 14 years old JJ! What the hell were you thinking?!" His voice is somehow calm but also angry and it makes me shrink back into my seat. 

"Nearly 15 and I was just having fun. Everyone else was doing it. It's not a big deal, isn't the first time either."

Clearly that wasn't the right thing to say...

"For fuck sake JJ! We taught you better than this!" he bites back.

How can he even say 'we' not to put the blame on him but HE raised me not her. she is the reason I needed to clear my head anyway. She is the one who fucked me up! She hasn't taught me anything good but how to abandon people and act with no care in the world. 

"WE??? There's no we dad, only you! I hope you aren't forgetting the fact, that the woman that birthed me hasn't seen me in 2 years and has only spoken to me once this year and thats only because its fucking January and its just been new years!"

"HEY, language! And yeah well your mom isn't impressed with you either, so expect words from her too!"

His statement makes me laugh, she isn't impressed??? Yeah well I'm not either with how she does not actually know how to communicate and hasn't actually been a parent towards me for years now. But even still I stay silent instead of talking back twice within a few minutes. I can't be asked for an argument. It's draining and I have a headache and I just want to get home and sleep.

 The silence stays floating between us in the car, my head resting against the window as I think about what to pack for Australia. That's where dad is heading on Monday, I can't wait to explore Australia. It isn't until I notice dad misses our turn off do I sit up and turn to look at him.